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"𝑖𝑣𝑒 𝑏𝑒𝑒𝑛 𝑖𝑛 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑚𝑦 𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑖𝑟𝑒 𝑙𝑖𝑓𝑒"
"𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑠𝑎𝑖𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑑 𝑎𝑙𝑤𝑎𝑦𝑠 𝑏𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑚𝑒.....𝑠𝑜 𝑤ℎ𝑎𝑡 ℎ𝑎𝑝𝑝𝑒𝑛𝑒𝑑? 𝑤ℎ𝑦 𝑤𝑒𝑟𝑒𝑛𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑒?"
"𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑝𝑟𝑜𝑚𝑖𝑠𝑒𝑑"
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you know that one friend that's been by your side your whole entire life? the one that's been through every single thing with you? been there for every milestone?
mine was corbyn besson.
i have so many memories of us growing up.
he was always there for me through every single thing, but he never asked for anything in return.
i remember when we were learning how to ride bikes. he learned really quick, but i sucked at it. i fell of and scraped my elbows and knees. corbyn picked me up off the ground and carried me inside. he cleaned my cuts and put bandaids on them and then kissed my tears away. for the rest of the day, he made sure to catch me every time i fell.
i remember when we were in second grade, i didn't want to go to school because i felt sick, but my mom made me go. corbyn begged the teacher sit next to me for the day and she eventually caved. as the day went on, i felt worse and i vividly remember tapping corbyn's shoulder and telling him i was going to throw up. he quickly ran and grabbed the trash can and held my hair back while i threw up. i left school early, but as soon as school was out, he came over with one of his stuffed animals and the blanket we always cuddled under. he stayed at my house the whole weekend and cuddled me until i felt better.
i remember when my dog died in third grade. as soon as corbyn heard what happened, he dragged his mom to the store so that he could get me flowers, a teddy bare, candy, and ice cream. he packed his bag and stayed at my house for the whole week. the whole time he was at my house, he talked me through it and ate an over abundance of ice cream with me. he let me cry on him until his shirt was soaked and he cuddled me all day every day and all night every night.
when we were in fifth grade, my appendix bursted during math class. until the ambulance showed up, he held me close to him and then he cried when the paramedics took me away. after i woke up from surgery, he was sitting next to my hospital bed with the blanket we always cuddled with. he stayed in the hospital with me until i was released and then stayed at my house until i was better.
when we were in sixth grade, we were having a sleepover. we went out skateboarding and then we played soccer in my backyard. we watched a horror movie before bed because he begged me to. in the middle of the night, i woke up from a nightmare and didn't hesitate to wake him up. he pulled me on top of him and sang me back to sleep while playing with my hair.
when we were in seventh grade, i got my first period and corbyn was the one who walked me to the nurse and waited until i was ready to go back to class. instead of going back to class, we hid in the gym and cuddled under the bleachers because i had cramps.
freshman year of high school, i broke my leg during the varsity soccer game. he was on the field before my own mother. he picked me up and carried me to the ambulance and begged them to ride in the back. he ended up buying me a whole basket of candy even though i only broke my leg.
sophomore year of high school, corbyn helped me buy my first car with his own money. he also forced me to study, but i passed my drivers test and we drove around all the time.
junior year, i got my first boyfriend and had my first kiss. corbyn was the first person i told and for the first time, i saw corbyn upset. i was so stupid, i didn't understand why. about two months later, my boyfriend cheated on me and corbyn was the one who dried my tears and reassured me i was beautiful. he even got suspended for me when he beat the shit out of my ex boyfriend.
senior year, we kissed. corbyn and i went for a hike and when we were watching the sunset, we kissed. we both brushed it off and said we were just caught up in the moment even though we both knew it wasn't true. we just didn't want to ruin our friendship.
when we graduated, corbyn went to LA to pursue his dreams and i went to northwestern university in Illinois.
we texted every day, we never drifted apart. we were just that close.
corbyn joined a band and toured the world.
i became a journalist and got engaged.
i though my life was perfect, but it's far from it.
i'm sitting in an uber in the way to corbyn's house right now.
my wedding was yesterday and corbyn didn't show up. he didn't even call me.
so, i'm on my way to his house because i definitely have a bone to pick with him.
i showed up at his house and knocked on the door.
when he answered, he looked a mess. he was wearing baggy sweats and an old white t-shirt. his hair was a mess and his eyes were red and puffy, almost as if he was crying.
"what are you doing here?" he asked softly, moving aside so i could come inside.
when i stepped in, i was shocked. i had never seen corbyn's house this messy. there were tissues and all over the couch and his blanket was sprawled out with pillows. there was empty ice cream containers on the coffee table and chip bags everywhere. the dirty dishes in the sink were overflowing.
"corbs, what the hell happened to you?" i asked.
"nothing."
i shook my head and walked forward to hug my best friend. he hugged me weakly, something is definitely wrong.
"corbs, where were you yesterday, it was my wedding day?" i asked, holding onto his hands.
he just shrugged.
"you said you'd always be there for me.....so what happened? why weren't you there?"
"i....i just couldn't make it. i'm sorry," he mumbled.
"but you promised...." i said, tears starting to well in my eyes.
"i..i just couldn't be there. i'm really sorry, i am, i just couldn't," he said, his voice beginning to crack.
"corbyn, i...i didn't even get married yesterday. i walked down the aisle, but when you weren't there, i couldn't get married. i literally ran out of the venue, i really needed you to be there for me," i explained.
"ok, i'm fucking sorry! alright? what more do you want?" he yelled.
i stepped away and crossed my arms, afraid of my best friend. he's never been angry at me like that before.
"i'm sorry, i didn't mean to yell at you, i just...i didn't want to be selfish, but i couldn't put myself through that," he said.
"what do you mean?"
"i've been in love with you my entire life!" he said, his eyes glossing over.
i just stared, not knowing what to say.
"i know that's weird for you to hear, but i have to say it. i've loved you since kindergarten! i've been so in love with you for so long. when we kissed in our senior year, that was the happiest i ever was. when you told me you were getting married, i felt like my heart was ripped out of my chest. i just couldn't show up yesterday, i'm sorry!" he said, his tears starting to fall as he saw me crying.
"corbyn, baby," i choked out.
i moved quickly. i grabbed his face and kissed him hard. he wrapped his strong arms around my waist and pulled me so close to him.
when we broke, we both hugged each other, crying into each other's shoulders.
"corbs, i love you," i cried.
"i love you too."

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