𝐰𝐡𝐲 𝐝𝗼𝐧𝐭 𝐰𝐞 𝐢𝗺𝐚𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐬

169, 174, 180, 181 ❁ 𝘤𝘰𝘳𝘣𝘺𝘯 𝘣𝘦𝘴𝘴𝘰𝘯

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𝗿𝗲𝗾𝘂𝗲𝘀𝘁 𝗳𝗼𝗿 @𝗰𝗵𝗲𝗿𝗿𝘅𝘆𝗯𝗲𝘀
"𝑛𝑜, 𝑑𝑜𝑛𝑡 𝑐𝑟𝑦. 𝑖 ℎ𝑎𝑡𝑒 𝑖𝑡 𝑤ℎ𝑒𝑛 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑐𝑟𝑦"
"𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑡𝑖𝑚𝑒𝑠 𝑖 𝑤𝑖𝑠ℎ 𝑖 𝑐𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑓𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑎𝑠𝑙𝑒𝑒𝑝 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑛𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑤𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑢𝑝"
"𝑠ℎℎ, 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟𝑒 𝑠𝑎𝑓𝑒. 𝑖 𝑤𝑜𝑛𝑡 𝑙𝑒𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑔𝑜"
"𝑖 𝑘𝑛𝑜𝑤 𝑖𝑣𝑒 𝑘𝑖𝑠𝑠𝑒𝑠 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑙𝑖𝑘𝑒.....𝑡𝑒𝑛 𝑡𝑖𝑚𝑒𝑠, 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑐𝑎𝑛 𝑖 𝑗𝑢𝑠𝑡 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑙𝑖𝑘𝑒.....𝑡𝑒𝑛 𝑚𝑜𝑟𝑒 𝑘𝑖𝑠𝑠𝑒𝑠"
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𝗵𝗲𝘆 𝘆𝗮𝗹𝗹, 𝗶 𝗸𝗻𝗼𝘄 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝗶𝘀 𝗱𝗲𝗹𝗮𝘆𝗲𝗱, 𝗯𝘂𝘁 𝗶 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗸 𝗶𝘁𝘀 𝗶𝗺𝗽𝗼𝗿𝘁𝗮𝗻𝘁 𝘁𝗼 𝘁𝗮𝗹𝗸 𝗮𝗯𝗼𝘂𝘁. 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗺𝗮𝘆 𝗼𝗿 𝗺𝗮𝘆 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝗵𝗮𝘃𝗲 𝘀𝗲𝗲𝗻 𝗮𝗹𝗹 𝗼𝗳 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗱𝗿𝗮𝗺𝗮 𝘀𝘂𝗿𝗿𝗼𝘂𝗻𝗱𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗰𝗼𝗿𝗯𝘆𝗻 𝗿𝗲𝗰𝗲𝗻𝘁𝗹𝘆. 𝗶𝗳 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗵𝗮𝘃𝗲𝗻𝘁 𝘀𝗲𝗲𝗻 𝗶𝘁, 𝗯𝗮𝘀𝗶𝗰𝗮𝗹𝗹𝘆 𝗽𝗲𝗼𝗽𝗹𝗲 𝗳𝗼𝘂𝗻𝗱 𝘁𝘄𝗲𝗲𝘁𝘀 𝗼𝗳 𝗰𝗼𝗿𝗯𝘆𝗻'𝘀 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝘄𝗲𝗿𝗲 𝗿𝗮𝗰𝗶𝘀𝘁, 𝗵𝗼𝗺𝗼𝗽𝗵𝗼𝗯𝗶𝗰, 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗳𝗮𝘁 𝘀𝗵𝗮𝗺𝗶𝗻𝗴. 𝗶 𝗱𝗶𝗱 𝘀𝗲𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘁𝘄𝗲𝗲𝘁𝘀 𝗮𝘀 𝘀𝗰𝗿𝗲𝗲𝗻𝘀𝗵𝗼𝘁𝘀 𝘄𝗲𝗿𝗲 𝗮𝗹𝗹 𝗼𝘃𝗲𝗿 𝘁𝘄𝗶𝘁𝘁𝗲𝗿 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗼𝗻 𝗶𝗻𝘀𝘁𝗮𝗴𝗿𝗮𝗺 𝘁𝗲𝗮 𝗽𝗮𝗴𝗲𝘀. 𝗿𝗲𝗴𝗮𝗿𝗱𝗹𝗲𝘀𝘀 𝗼𝗳 𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝗮𝗴𝗲, 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀 𝗵𝗲 𝘀𝗮𝗶𝗱 𝘄𝗲𝗿𝗲 𝘂𝗽𝘀𝗲𝘁𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗼𝗳𝗳𝗲𝗻𝘀𝗶𝘃𝗲 𝘁𝗼 𝗮 𝗹𝗼𝘁 𝗼𝗳 𝗽𝗲𝗼𝗽𝗹𝗲. 𝗶 𝘄𝗮𝘀 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝗽𝗲𝗿𝘀𝗼𝗻𝗮𝗹𝗹𝘆 𝗼𝗳𝗳𝗲𝗻𝗲𝗱 𝗮𝘀 𝗶 𝗮𝗺 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝗮 𝗽𝗲𝗿𝘀𝗼𝗻 𝗼𝗳 𝗰𝗼𝗹𝗼𝗿 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗶 𝗮𝗺 𝘀𝘁𝗿𝗮𝗶𝗴𝗵𝘁. 𝗕𝗨𝗧, 𝗶 𝗰𝗮𝗻 𝗰𝗼𝗺𝗽𝗹𝗲𝘁𝗲𝗹𝘆 𝘂𝗻𝗱𝗲𝗿𝘀𝘁𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗵𝗼𝘄 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘁𝘄𝗲𝗲𝘁𝘀 𝘄𝗲𝗿𝗲 𝗼𝗳𝗳𝗲𝗻𝘀𝗶𝘃𝗲 𝘁𝗼 𝗽𝗲𝗼𝗽𝗹𝗲 𝗼𝗳 𝗰𝗼𝗹𝗼𝗿, 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗹𝗴𝗯𝘁𝗾+ 𝗰𝗼𝗺𝗺𝘂𝗻𝗶𝘁𝘆 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗽𝗲𝗼𝗽𝗹𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝘀𝘁𝗿𝘂𝗴𝗴𝗹𝗲 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝗯𝗼𝗱𝘆 𝗰𝗼𝗻𝗳𝗶𝗱𝗲𝗻𝗰𝗲. 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝗮𝗹𝗹 𝗼𝗳 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗯𝗲𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘀𝗮𝗶𝗱, 𝗶 𝗮𝗺 𝗴𝗹𝗮𝗱 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗰𝗼𝗿𝗯𝘆𝗻 𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗰𝗵𝗲𝗱 𝗼𝘂𝘁 𝘁𝗼 𝗳𝗮𝗻𝘀 𝘁𝗵𝗿𝗼𝘂𝗴𝗵 𝗱𝗺, 𝗯𝘂𝘁 𝗶 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗸 𝗶𝘁 𝘄𝗼𝘂𝗹𝗱 𝗵𝗮𝘃𝗲 𝗯𝗲𝗲𝗻 𝗺𝗼𝗿𝗲 𝗲𝗳𝗳𝗲𝗰𝘁𝗶𝘃𝗲 𝗶𝗳 𝗵𝗲 𝘁𝘄𝗲𝗲𝘁𝗲𝗱 𝗮𝗻 𝗮𝗽𝗼𝗹𝗼𝗴𝘆. 𝗶 𝘂𝗻𝗱𝗲𝗿𝘀𝘁𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝘆 𝗮𝗿𝗲 "𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝗮𝗹𝗹𝗼𝘄𝗲𝗱 𝘁𝗼 𝗽𝗼𝘀𝘁" 𝗯𝘂𝘁 𝗷𝗼𝗻𝗮𝗵 𝘁𝘄𝗲𝗲𝘁𝗲𝗱 𝗮𝗯𝗼𝘂𝘁 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗿𝗮𝗰𝗶𝘀𝗺 𝗶𝗻 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗳𝗮𝗻𝗱𝗼𝗺 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗮𝗽𝗼𝗹𝗼𝗴𝗶𝘇𝗲𝗱, 𝘀𝗼 𝘄𝗵𝘆 𝗰𝗮𝗻'𝘁 𝗰𝗼𝗿𝗯𝘆𝗻. 𝘄𝗵𝗮𝘁𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿 𝗵𝗲 𝗰𝗵𝗼𝗼𝘀𝗲𝘀 𝗵𝗲 𝗰𝗵𝗼𝗼𝘀𝗲𝘀 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝘄𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗵𝗲 𝗱𝗶𝗱 𝘄𝗮𝘀 𝘄𝗿𝗼𝗻𝗴, 𝗕𝗨𝗧 𝗽𝗹𝗲𝗮𝘀𝗲 𝗱𝗼 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝘀𝗲𝗻𝗱 𝗵𝗶𝗺 𝗱𝗲𝗮𝘁𝗵 𝘁𝗵𝗿𝗲𝗮𝘁𝘀. 𝗶 𝗵𝗮𝘃𝗲 𝘀𝗲𝗲𝗻 𝗮𝗹𝗹 𝗼𝘃𝗲𝗿 𝘁𝘄𝗶𝘁𝘁𝗲𝗿 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝗴 𝗽𝗲𝗼𝗽𝗹𝗲 𝘄𝗲𝗿𝗲 𝘀𝗲𝗻𝗱𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗵𝗶𝗺 𝗱𝗲𝗮𝘁𝗵 𝘁𝗵𝗿𝗲𝗮𝘁𝘀 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝘁𝗲𝗹𝗹𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗵𝗶𝗺 𝘁𝗼 𝗰𝗼𝗺𝗺𝗶𝘁 𝘀𝘂𝗶𝗰𝗶𝗱𝗲, 𝘄𝗵𝗶𝗰𝗵 𝗶𝘀 𝗳𝗮𝗿 𝗳𝗿𝗼𝗺 𝗼𝗸𝗮𝘆. 𝘆𝗲𝘀, 𝗵𝗲 𝗺𝗲𝘀𝘀𝗲𝗱 𝘂𝗽, 𝗯𝘂𝘁 𝗵𝗲 𝗱𝗼𝗲𝘀 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝗱𝗲𝘀𝗲𝗿𝘃𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗸𝗶𝗻𝗱 𝗼𝗳 𝗵𝗮𝘁𝗲. 𝗶𝗺 𝗴𝗼𝗻𝗻𝗮 𝗲𝗻𝗱 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝘀, 𝗯𝘂𝘁 𝘀𝗲𝗻𝗱𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗮 𝗹𝗶𝗹 𝗲𝘅𝘁𝗿𝗮 𝗹𝗼𝘃𝗲 𝘁𝗼 𝗰𝗼𝗿𝗯𝘆𝗻 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗮𝗻𝘆𝗼𝗻𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝘄𝗮𝘀 𝗮𝗳𝗳𝗲𝗰𝘁𝗲𝗱 𝗯𝘆 𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝘁𝘄𝗲𝗲𝘁𝘀 <𝟯

𝘀𝗼𝗿𝗿𝘆 𝗹𝗼𝗹 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝘄𝗮𝘀 𝗹𝗼𝗻𝗴 𝗯𝘂𝘁 𝗻𝗲𝗲𝗱𝗲𝗱 𝘁𝗼 𝗯𝗲 𝘀𝗮𝗶𝗱.

corbyn is a happy guy. he's always making jokes and complimenting people and just trying to make people smile and laugh.
making people happy makes him happy.
this last week has been different though.
he's been sleeping in way late and he's barely eating and he rarely showers. he won't do anything, he just sits around and stares at the wall or sleeps. not only that, but i've seen him crying a lot recently. corbyn never cries, ever, u less it's happy tears. so, i'm definitely concerned that he's been crying so much.
i know him well enough to know he's going through something. he's been my boyfriend for five years, i know he's not okay.
i walked into our bedroom on a saturday to see him curled in a ball on our bed. he hasn't showered in three days and he ate a bowl of cereal yesterday and that was it.
"corbs?"
"hm?"
i sighed and walked over to the bed, sitting down next to him and rubbing his shoulder.
"baby, this isn't healthy. you have to eat, darling, you need to take care of yourself," i said soothingly.
"it's whatever, i'm fine," he said.
"no, you're not fine. corbs, i won't ever judge you or invalidate your feelings. you can always talk to me, i will always be here to help you," i assured, laying down next to him.
he didn't say anything, but he cuddled into my body and soon after i felt his tears on neck.
"no, don't cry. i hate it when you cry," i said, rubbing his back as i comfortingly kissed his forehead.
"i-i'm so scared of m-my own t-thoughts," he cried, clinging tightly to my body.
"what are you thinking baby?"
"well...um, sometimes i wish i could fall asleep and never wake up," he said blankly, causing my heart to crack in half.
"corbyn, my love...why?" i asked.
"i just...i try so hard to make people like me, but i have this feeling that people actually hate me," he said, his voice sounding tired.
"honey, i can't believe you think that. there are so many people that love you. you are a great friend and you are so selfless. even if every person on this earth hated you, which they don't, i would still love you. i love you no matter what, you're my whole fucking world, corbyn," i said, locking my pinkie around his as a promise.
"i just..i don't even know," he cried.
"shh, you're safe. i won't let you go," i assured, hugging his trembling figure tight.
he cried on my shoulder, his hands bawling up my t-shirt.
i didn't care, i cared for him. all i wanted was for him to stop crying and smile.
"corbs, how about you go shower while i make you some tacos. then, we can cuddle on the couch and watch a movie?" i asked, just wanting him to get out of bed and take care of his health.
he slowly nodded, but he continued clinging to me.
"um...we can do that...just...can we cuddle here for a little?" he asked.
"of course."
he laid his head down on my chest and i wiped his tears.
"hey, give me a kiss," i said.
he leaned up with a slight smile and kissed my lips. i kissed him a few more times before he laid back down on my chest.
"i know i've kissed you like....ten times, but can i just have like.....ten more kisses?" i asked.
he laughed and then began kissing me over and over again before placing on wet kiss in my cheek.
he might not be completely okay, but at least he's getting better.

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𝗽𝘂𝗯𝗹𝗶𝘀𝗵𝗲𝗱 - 𝟳/𝟭𝟰/𝟮𝟬
𝑖 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢
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