Addicted

I Think I Love You

We'd both been so busy lately that we had barely spoken since that night. We would try to sneak a few minutes in here and there to see each other, but we were also trying to keep the fact that we were actually dating quiet. I only told April and that's because I knew I could trust her. I think Danielle suspected something because every so often she'd complain about how Jon wouldn't answer her calls anymore, and she suddenly started to talk to me. It could be that she just wanted to be friends, but I didn't trust her.

I walked around the back for a while waiting, hoping, that I'd be able to steal a moment with Jon. It was even harder lately because we were booked on opposite Live shows most nights. I grabbed a bottle of water and walked around the concourse of the arena and then out to the empty seats. I sat down, put my feet on the back of the chair in front of me and held my phone in my lap. I couldn't get him out of my head. I had become obsessed...carrying my phone everywhere, constantly checking for messages or calls, looking at pictures I took of us...it was getting to the point of consuming my life. I picked up my phone and started typing a text to send him

I miss you. ❤️

I felt warm breath on my neck and the familiar scent of cigarettes and peppermint. My heart started racing and nearly lept out of my chest with excitement

"I miss you too" he teased

I turned around in my seat and squealed

"Well, are you going to come over here or are you just going to sit there squealing?"

I laughed and got up and moved to the next row above me. He pulled me onto his lap and kissed me. He made me so happy for the first time in my life I felt completely happy and whole. He sat back in the chair and I laid my head on his shoulder and closed my eyes. A couple of the other superstars walked by and I tried to hide

"Angie I don't give a shit who knows anymore."

We sat in the empty arena cuddling and talking for a long time. I was in love with him. I just didn't want to be the first one to say it. I didn't want to be rejected if he didn't feel the same. I wanted to scream it from the rooftops, but I knew that I couldn't.  I cuddled closer and he kissed my forehead. I smiled, lost in thought and on cloud 9.

"What the hell Jonathan!?!?!"

My eyes shot open and I raised my head. Summer Rae was flipping out. I knew something was up with her beacuse she'd been freaking out for a while because he wasn't calling her back and she had leeched onto me for some reason.

"What the hell back Danielle. What is your problem?"

"You don't ever call me back. You said you cared about me"

"No, I didn't.  You're hearing things. I'm not calling you back because I have a girlfriend that is why.  Come on Danielle I don't get a lot of alone time with Angie and you're ruining it...in other words GO AWAY"

She was hurt. I could tell. I felt kind of bad. Did I break them up? She certainly acted like they were in a relationship that I had completely screwed up. She blurted it out...I couldn't believe what I was hearing...

"Whatever Jon.  You were fucking me up until last week so I guess you have to explain that one now huh"

I sat up, my eyes stinging with tears that I was trying to hold back. She stormed off and I pushed his arms from around my waist and just looked at him. He closed his eyes and sighed in annoyance. My chest was heaving. I wanted to believe him but he wasn't saying anything and it was leaving me with all kinds of doubt and questions

"Is that true?"  I choked out in half a whisper

"Ang..."

"Oh my God! It IS true?!?! Jon!?! What!?  How could you??!!!  Do I mean NOTHING to you at all!?!!? Answer me!!"