Addicted

Violent Secrets

"Would you just fucking tell me!?!?"

"It's none of your business Jon!"

"None of my business you're my fucking wife Angela!  What do you mean none of my business!?!  What are you hiding from me???"

"NOTHING!!"

"You're a goddamned liar!"

"Just leave me alone!"

I ripped my arm away from his grip and went out the locker room door. I felt really bad about all of this secrecy. I could see the hurt in his face. He knew I was lying. I knew I was lying. I just wanted to talk to my best friend first. I made my way down the hall to the divas locker room and went inside. I made my way over to April and then had to turn around and make a beeline for the bathroom. I was nervous and just overall wasn't feeling well.

"Angie? Are you alright?"

I flushed and crawled over to the door and unlocked it. April came over and sat next to me on the floor against the wall. I put my head down and ran my fingers through my hair. This all felt like a horrible disaster because of the way I was going about all of this. I looked over to see that April was watching me with a look of concern. She didn't have anything to really be super concerned about, but I totally understood why. I half smiled at her and stood up

"I need to talk to you. Can we go outside or something? I need it to be private"

"Ok. Lets go outside. I think we can find a place to talk."

Jon's POV

I kicked the metal chair across the room. I knew she was lying and she's hiding something from me, but I couldn't figure out what it could be. I was afraid of what it was. Me, Jonathan Good, was afraid of what my wife was hiding from me. I was starting to wonder if Colby was getting inside of her head. She wouldn't leave me for Colby...would she? I shook my head to get the thought out. I glanced across the room and saw her phone sitting on the chair next to her bag. I walked over to it and picked it up, but immediately put it back down. I wasn't one to spy or be nosy and I certainly didn't have any reason to not trust her. I guess I was just curious until a message from Colby popped up on her lock screen

Where are you?

My heart sank. It was Colby related. I knew it. I suddenly didn't care if I was being nosy or not and I didn't care if this violated her trust. I opened her text messages and started rifling through the hundreds of messages between her and Colby. For weeks he'd been texting her non stop. He would go on and on and on about how horrible I am and how she needs to leave me. She would either not respond or give one word answers. She wasn't playing into it at least, but it still didn't change the fact that they had been talking back and forth all of this time. I'm not an idiot...little does she know I also know that they've been sneaking around in dark corners of the buildings.  One of the messages in particular caught my eye

Angie, tell him you're leaving. Do it. Tell him before you dig yourself into a deeper hole that you can't get out of. When you do it come directly to me. I'll protect you.

Angie's POV

I felt a little better after talking to April, but I still didn't want to tell Jon yet. I opened the locker room door and the lights were off. Weird. I turned on the lights only to be hit in the side of the head by my phone What the hell?

"Have something you need to tell me?"

I looked over as Jon stood up from the couch. He was seething mad and I didn't know why

"Why did you throw my phone at my head?"

"ANSWER ME!!"

"I don't know what you're talking about"

He walked over and ripped my phone out of my hand and grabbed the back of my neck as he went through my text messages from Colby. He had every right to be mad about that, but it was all one sided

"I'm not fucking stupid Angela. For weeks now...non stop. You fucking him on the side? Is that why you two keep ducking into random dark hallways? You think I don't know about that?"

"Jon it's not what you think at all. I swear. That's all Colby. I'm not doing anything like that behind your back. Please Jon...please believe me"

"You're a fucking liar. I don't know what I can and can't believe from you anymore. What is this big thing you have to tell me and then I MIGHT let you go run to your little knight in shining armor...I already saw the part about you leaving me.."

"Jon I'm not leaving you. Why are you doing this?"

"WHY ARE YOU LYING???"

He pushed me down from the back of my neck and I landed on my knees as tears started to fall. He didn't get it. He had no idea and it was all my fault for hiding it from him. The text messages meant nothing. It was all one sided from Colby. He wrote that message to be an asshole. I had no intentions EVER of leaving Jon, but no matter what I said he didn't believe me.

"Why were you going through my phone?"

He slapped me hard in the face. I reached my hand up to my cheek and stared up at him. My phone buzzed in his hand and I closed my eyes as his hand gripped around my throat. I reached up and tried to pry his hand from my throat but he just squeezed tighter. I just closed my eyes and accepted that this was how it was going to be. There was no reason to fight anymore.

I'm so glad we talked Angie. I missed our talks. I hope Jon is as excited as I am for you.  Call me later after you tell him

Jon read the text out loud. It was from April. She thinks I'm telling him right now. I wish I was, but we were once again having a violent fight. It always had to come down to this when he was really angry. It could never be yelling and then talking through it. It always had to be about violence. It's the one thing I hated about Jon more than anything. He loosened his grip a little on my throat

"What are you hiding Angie?"

I slightly shrugged. I still wasn't 100% ready to tell him. Even when my life depeneded on it, like it did right now, I still wasn't ready. And my refusal to tell just made him more angry and he got right up in my face

"You better tell me now"

"Let me go"

"No, tell me now Angela."

"I'm afraid"

"I'll give you something to be afraid of if you don't"

Tears were flowing freely. This was no exactly how I planned for this news to be revealed nor I was I ready to reveal it, but he was forcing my hand in this situation

"I'm pregnant"

He let go and completely backed away. I slid down the wall and sat with my knees to my chest and cried. I hated that I had to it this way. I had bigger, less threatening things in mind. It was uncomfortably silent for a second. I put my head down on my arms that were resting on my knees and sighed as the tears continued to fall. I felt him gently stroking my hair as he put his other hand on my arm

"....Angie? Look at me please"

I slightly raised my head and looked up at him.

"Seriously?"

I put my head back down and cried. This was just the worst night so far. I was starting to feel sick again, but I didn't want to leave. He slid his arm down to my hand and lightly tugged at it. I lifted my head again and our eyes locked for a second before I looked away. He tugged again and I fell into his arms

"I didn't want to tell you this way"

"Angie I'm so sorry.  I shouldn't have jumped to conclusions. Are you OK?"

"I think so.  I love you Jon. I know this isn't exactly what...."

He pulled me back and kissed me

"I love you too Angie.  Very much."