Addicted

We Cant Be Friends

"APRIL!!"

I excitedly ran to her and she jumped up on me and hugged me. I missed her. Jon and I spent 2 weeks at home fixing what we could. Things between us were certainly better. We both cut everyone off. It was just the two of us and I loved every minute of it. The bruises healed for the most part so I was comfortable coming back to work with minimal questions.

"My God Angie don't EVER disappear on me like that again. I've been worried sick. What happened that night?"

I put up my hand to stop the conversation. Jon and I decided that we weren't going to talk about that night anymore. We'd both said all we needed to say on it. We've both apologized to the point of hating the phrase "I'm sorry". We just wanted to move forward.

"April, I kind of just want to move forward and not worry about that anymore. It's done. It's over. It's in the past. "

"He did hit you didn't he?"

I sighed "I'm not going to talk about it. At least not here and regardless of what I tell you he and I have worked through it and it's over."

"I knew it! You lied to me Ang!!"

I grabbed her wrist and we walked outside away from the building. Jon and I also agreed that if April or Colby (since they were the only ones to witness the start of the fight) asked questions that we would answer them with minimal details. Jon trusts Colby and I trust April so hopefully neither will say anything.

"Ok look yes, the fight got physical. BUT, listen to me, it's DONE. It's OVER. It was almost 3 weeks ago and we're fine. Everything is 100% fine."

She just looked at me shocked and hurt.

"Angela....everything that you went through growing up. Seeing the way your father treated your mother why in the world would you even consider putting up with that??  Are you really THAT stupid?"

Now MY feelings were hurt. I realize that it wasn't very smart to put up with it, but she wasn't in my situation, she's not me and I'm NOT my mother

"April....you have to understand this is a different situation. I can't believe you just called me stupid"

"I'm sorry Angie, but you ARE stupid and I don't think that I can be friends with you right now."

"What? April please. You're my best friend...you're just going to abandon me like that??"

"If you stay with him Angela...it's NEVER going to stop. He can say he's sorry all he wants. He can tell you it's never going to happen again all he wants. Truth is the minute he finds even the smallest thing wrong he's going to hit you again. And when he does remember this conversation and come find me so I can tell you 'I told you so'."

She turned and walked away from me. I stood there in shock and disbelief. Did that really just happen? I made my way back inside the building and ran into Colby. I just was NOT in the mood to talk to him too. I was not having the "welcome back" I was expecting and I didn't know if she was going to tell everyone now that she's not my friend.

He tried to stop me to talk and I just pushed right by him and made a beeline for the Shields locker room. I needed Jon and I needed him NOW. Colby was following behind me and I could hear him calling my  name, but I just didn't care. He wasn't the person I wanted to talk to. He caught up to me and grabbed my wrist and spun me around

"ANGIE. I'm trying to talk to you"

Tears were streaming down my cheeks and I didn't want to stop and talk to him at all.

"Not now Colby. Leave me alone. I just want Jon."

"What happened?"

"Nothing...just go away."

I pulled away from Colby and headed for the locker room. I reached for the door handle and the door swung open. Jon stood there surprised to see me and I rushed to him and wrapped my arms around his waist and held on tight. He held me in his arms and stroked my hair

"Angie what happened?"

"April....she...."

"She what?"

"She doesn't want to be friends with me anymore."

"Huh? Why?"

"Because of our fight."

"You told her?"

He sighed as I nodded and led me over to the couch. He sat down and pulled me to him and held me

"She said I was stupid"

"I think she's just shocked and hurt that you lied and covered for me. Give her time Ang. I don't think she meant it. I know she's your best friend and means everything to you. Let her sort through it all and process what you told her. You always have me. Speaking of you can stay in here if you want"

I looked up at him and he smiled and nodded. I softly kissed him and laid my head back down on his chest.  I sighed and settled in and got comfortable.

"I love you Jon."

"I love you too Ang. Just get some rest."