Addicted

More Drama Than Its Worth

I couldn't breathe. I hadn't looked at him since the ruling at the courthouse. I'll never forget the look on his face that day. It was like I had killed everything in his world and I was so depressed for months after seeing him like that. Seeing him now, almost calm, brought back so many memories. I just stared at his blue eyes. I wanted to reach out and hold his hand or fall into his arms and have him hold me. But Stephen was holding me back in a way. I knew they hated each other and had since before Jon and I had even started seeing each other. I knew that I was going to eventually see him and have to talk to him. I just didn't think it was going to be tonight.

"Hi"

He stepped forward and gave me a quick, meaningless, polite hug. He still smelled like cigarettes and peppermint gum and my heart started racing at his touch. I half smiled and looked down. Stephen pulled me back and wrapped both of his arms around my shoulders. Great...posturing...this is awkward. I looked up and you could see it written all over his face; he was jealous. He was jealous and he still had feelings for me.

"Can we....maybe...talk? I..."

"HEY BABY!!"

Danielle came over and threw herself against him and kissed his cheek. My blood was boiling. I've ALWAYS hated her and I always will.

"Baby lets go out tonight for dinner. Remember you promised me?"

Stephen let go of my shoulders and took my hand and gave it a little tug. I looked back  up at Jon before walking away

"NO...we can't"

Jon's POV

I started to panic inside. God fucking damn Danielle!  I moved away from her and glared at her. I was seething with anger. I NEEDED to talk to Angie. I wanted to see my daughter and this blonde bitch may have just ruined my only real opportunity to talk to Angie civilly.

"What the fuck Danielle?"

"What? What did I do?"

"What did you do?  What didn't you do?  What the fuck is your problem?  I want to see my daughter and you just fucked that up!!"

She came over and ran her hands up my chest to my shoulders. I sighed in annoyance and grabbed her wrists and pushed her back. I forcefully grabbed my bottle of water and headed for the exit to smoke a cigarette. I was so pissed. I turned back and got right in her face. I hadn't felt this angry in a long time

"Lets get a few things straight Danielle. YOU are NOT my girlfriend. DO NOT call me Baby, honey, sweetie or any other cutsey pet name you can think of. DO NOT come near me at all. Unless it's storyline related stay the fuck away from me. Don't talk to me. Don't look at me. Don't think about looking at me. Just don't. I don't exist to you. Got it? And you and your little red haired bimbo stay away from Angie. I'm not fucking kidding Danielle. Stay away from me. Stay away from Angie."

I turned and quickly made my way outside and over to a dark corner away from the trucks. I lit a cigarette and took a long deep drag as I leaned against the wall

Angie's POV

We walked in the door of the locker room and I started angrily pacing. I hated her so much. She was ALWAYS rubbing Jon in my face. Stephen came over and wrapped his arms around me. I laid my head on his chest and smiled, starting to relax. I didn't want to think about her or Jon or anything right now. I just wanted to stay like this

"I love you"

I instantly tensed up. He'd never said it before and I was fine with that. I certainly didn't want to say it if I didn't mean it. I didnt know what to do. If I said nothing it would hurt him, but I couldn't say it either because that would be a lie. He pulled me back and kissed me, but I didn't kiss back. I was stunned and didn't know what to do or say. I didn't feel like after what just happened that saying I love you was appropriate.

"What's the problem?"

"I...I just don't think now is a good time for this"

"You don't love me do you? You've been using me?  Father figure for your daughter??"

"No. Stephen that's not it at all. You don't understand. Please. It's hard for me OK. Tonight has been stressful and I..."

"Here's an idea. I leave and you figure out what it is you want."

"What? You're leaving? Stephen...."

He grabbed his bags and walked out of the door. What the hell just happened??? I watched the door close as I sat in the middle of the floor and started to sob.

"Angie?"

I looked up to see Colby kneeling in front of me so I threw myself in his arms and buried my face in his shoulder. He softly stroked my hair and held me

"Shhh Angie it's alright. Lets go sit over here OK."

He helped me up and walked me to the small couch. He sat back and pulled me to him and wrapped his arms around me as I laid my head on his chest

"Angie what happened??"

"I should never have come back. It's too much Colby. Jon...Stephen...Danielle...I just should've stayed home with my daughter."

"OK slow down...what happened?  I saw what happened with Jon...why are you crying?"

"We came back here and Stephen told me he loved me and I didn't answer back. He got mad and just left me. Told me to figure out what I wanted."

"You don't love him?  Haven't you been with him for almost a year?"

"I don't...I..."

"You still love Jon don't you?"