Addicted

New Beginning

"You ready to go?"

I stared out the window holding my wedding ring in my hand. I shoved it in my pocket and turned around and smiled.

"Yeah Colby. Let me get my bag."

"No..no I got it. You don't get to worry about anything."

I half smiled and followed him out the door to the elevator. I wish I could believe that I didn't have to worry about anything. My marriage is in shambles, I'm 8 months pregnant and I'm shacking up with my husbands former best friend. There was NOTHING to worry about. We stepped into the elevator and he put his free arm around me as the doors closed. I stepped away and backed into the opposite corner. It was too soon for him to be getting so comfy. We headed down to the car and I got in and stared at the window as we drove. It was a silent car ride. I heard Colby clear his throat several times in a lame attempt to get me to talk, but I wasn't in the mood.  He pulled up to the front of his apartment complex. I got out of the car and followed him to his place. I walked in and looked around....obviously a single man lives here

"Welcome home! Mi casa es su casa...or whatever"

I giggled a little and sat on the couch. He put my bags in the bedroom and plopped down next to me. He was entirely too excited about this and way too cheerful for me right now.

"SO what do you want to do?"

I shrugged. I didn't particularly want to do anything

"We could watch movies, order Chinese, make out"

I made a face and moved away. He reached out and took my hands and pulled me back

"Angie...I'm kidding. Joke OK.  You remember what a joke is right? I wouldn't do anything like that to you. I was just trying to lighten the mood."

I looked down and nodded and he sighed 

"I just want you to feel comfortable and like this is your house too. I can tell you are uncomfortable.  I'll put on a movie and we'll just hang out for the day."

He put in a movie and we sat and watched it. My mind constantly wandered off in thought about Jon and my marriage and if it was something that was fixable. I was still madly in love with Jon. He was my everything. It's why I married him, put up with the hitting and the yelling, the fights, the cheating. But there was something this time that felt so much worse. Maybe it was because he was fucking my sister after swearing he would never do something like that to me. I knew that first night in the hospital that he was truly sorry. He very rarely, if ever, shows emotion about anything. I'd never seen him visibly cry like that. I wanted to take him back right then and there and I knew that deep down I couldn't and shouldn't. There was a principal behind it.

By the third movie I was feeling a little more comfortable with my surroundings. Colby ordered a pizza and we sat together enjoying each others company. This whole situation between Jon and I was all his fault. He started it with all of his texts, but in the grand scheme of things he'd always been very sweet to me and right now I just needed a friend. April offered to let me stay with her and Phil but I'd feel like a third wheel. I should be mad at Colby, but I couldn't be.

We finished up dinner and went back to watching movies. I moved a little closer and cuddled up to him. He put his arm around me and I laid my head on his shoulder. It was harmless and wasn't going to do anything. We were just friends anyway. The baby moved a bit and I smiled

"What the hell was that?"

I laughed a little "What was what"

"Was that a foot?"

I looked down and waited, but nothing happened. I shrugged "I dunno. Maybe"

"Isn't that weird?"

"No. I don't even really  notice it anymore. Does it weird you out?"

"Yeah kinda"

She moved again so I put his hand on my stomach. She kicked him and he quickly moved away. I laughed

"She likes you."

"That's freaky."

"Are we going to finish the movie or what?"

I put my head back on his shoulder as he resumed the movie. I cuddled closer as he wrapped his arms around me tighter. I sighed and got comfortable. Towards the end of the movie he put his hand under my chin and gently raised my head and pressed his lips to mine. I pushed back and looked down

"I'm sorry Angie. I don't know why I did that"

I smirked and leaned in and kissed him. He pulled me closer and deepened the kiss. My phone went off and I jumped and pulled away

"Hi April. Yes everything is fine. We just finished a movie and were going to bed. I'm tired.  We'll talk later"

He ran his fingers through his hair and stood behind the couch

"Uh...I'm really sorry...I don't know what the hell is going on. I need to go to bed or something."

"Where do I sleep?"

"Where do you think?"

"With you?  NO that's OK I'll take the couch."

"Ang it's not very comfortable plus I promise not to do anything funny or weird. It's been kind of a confusing day. I think we just need to sleep on it and go from there."

I nodded and followed him. I changed for bed and crawled in next to him. I turned to face him and he was just staring at me. I didn't know what to think about that. I reached over and caressed his cheek and smiled

"Stop staring and go to sleep. It's creepy when you do that."

He smiled and leaned over and kissed my cheek.

"Goodnight Colby" I muttered as I drifted off to sleep.