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I went back upstairs and sat next to Angie. I didn't know what to do. She was expecting Jon not me.

April help!! Angie's injury was worse than they first thought. Jon lost it and walked. He says he doesn't care anymore, but he's lying. He promised her he'd be here when she woke up.  I don't know what to do

OK. Let me see if I can find him and talk him into going back

I set my phone on the tray by her bed and sat back in the chair and sighed deeply. Too much fucking drama with these two!  I rest my elbow on the arm rest and put my head in my hand and closed my eyes. I was exhausted and it was only the middle of the day.

Angie's POV

I sat on the couch of a hotel room. Cuddled up to Jon with my head on his chest and my legs draped over his lap. This was so long ago. We had just started seeing each other. His arms were wrapped around me tight, holding me close and I felt so safe and happy. I wanted to scream out that I loved him, but I didn't want to freak him out or be weird. I'd never been in love before and never had anyone who really cared

"Angie, what do you want? Like what do you want from 'us'?"

"Oh...you mean future?"

He nodded "Mmhmm"

"I just want someone to love and who will love me and everything about me."

"That's not what I mean. I mean you and I...what do you want to come of you and I?"

"I...I...I want you to fall in love with me the way I'm falling for you"

He silently chuckled and I buried my face embarrassed. He gently raised my head to look at him. He smiled and softly kissed me. I closed my eyes and smiled behind the kiss. Suddenly I couldn't move. Why can't I move?  I opened my eyes and saw Jon with hatred and anger in his eyes. He was towering over me as I laid on the ground. I tried to scream but nothing came out...I tried to move but his knee was on my chest holding me down. He was yelling at me and calling me names, but it all sounded so muffled. His fist connected with my face and I heard a child screaming. Horrified I looked over and saw Bailey, she was older, around 5 and she was hiding with a little boy who was younger, probably about 2. He didn't look like Jon though...he looked like Colby. I turned my head back as the tears streamed from the corners of my eyes as Jon stood there and laughed

"JON!!!"

My eyes shot open, tears streaming out of the corners of my eyes pooling at my ears. I couldn't move. Why couldn't I move? Colby shot up from the chair next to me and held my hands, they were shaking with fear. He gently wiped the tears and smiled at me

"Shh Angie it's alright. I'm here. It was just a dream"

"Why can't I move my head?"

"They put you in a neck brace. Your head was hurt pretty bad. They just want to be safe"

"Where's Jon?  He promised..."

"I know, but he's not here. He left"

"Left?"

"When he heard how bad it was he got angry with himself. He just...left. I tried to stop him, but he just felt so guilty and angry"

"But...he promised Colby. He said he'd be here. I told him I still loved him"

The tears started to stream down again. I was crushed. I just told him how I felt and he bailed on me.  Colby wiped the tears and sighed. He was frustrated and I think it was with Jon. I kept trying to remind myself that it didn't matter. That I was the one who divorced him. I was the one who walked away because I couldn't deal with what he'd done.

"Colby...." He looked over at me and I looked away "......you don't have to be here. I know I hurt you. You..."

"Ang, I wouldn't be anywhere else. I promise you I want to be here. Do you want to talk about your dream?"

I tried to shake my head, but quickly remembered that I couldn't. I sighed deeply and closed my eyes. I didn't want to talk about it or think about it anymore. I opened my eyes and looked at Colby and half smiled.

Jon's POV

I parked the rental car and got out and walked towards the small bridge. I sat down underneath it next to the water and pulled out my new lighter and pack of cigarettes. I put one to my lips and lit it and took a long deep drag. I put my head back and thought about what I'd done. I couldn't keep hurting Angie...mentally and physically. I needed to just resort myself to the fact that I was never going to see my daughter. Resort myself to the fact that I will never get my wife back and that our life will never be what it was before I hit her the first time. She changed everything in my life.  She turned my world upside down and I shouldn't have let her. I was just in love with her.

"Hey"

I opened my eyes and turned my head and took a drag off of my cigarette.

"You stalking me or something?"

"No. I wanted to talk to you. I saw you at the AM/PM and decided to follow you here. Why'd you leave Angie like that Jon?"

"Colby?"

She nodded "Yes. He asked me to help him"

"You're wasting your time. I'm done"

"No you're not. Stop lying Jon. What about Bailey? What about what Angie?  She LOVES you Jon. She never stopped. She just didn't know how to get over the fact that you slept with Janelle. She never wanted a divorce. She just felt in her heart that she had no choice."

"Whatever" I muttered under my breath as I took another drag

"Don't whatever me Jon. What is this really about?"

"What is it really about? I wish I'd never....nothing...I just don't care anymore"

"Liar. You bugged me several times a week, every week for almost 2 years. Jon you love her. You know you do. You love Bailey. What are you doing? Go back. Get her back. It's what she wants. It's what you want regardless of what you're saying."

I finished off my cigarette and flung the butt into the water. April looked over at me and half smiled. I reached out and touched her face. She froze, shocked I would even dare touch her. It'd been a very long time. I leaned in and brushed my lips against hers. I pulled back and stood up laughing

"Just kidding"

She stood up and slapped me across the face as hard as she could

"FUCK YOU JON!!! That wasn't funny at all.  I'm married...it's not like that with us anymore."

"Oh lighten up. I wouldn't do that to you OR Phil so calm the fuck down. It was a joke."

She turned on her heel and started to walk away. I didn't want her to be mad at me or tell Angie I did something inappropriate so I ran after her and grabbed her shoulder

"April...I'm sorry. I was just kidding. Just trying to lighten the mood a bit."

She rolled her eyes "Relax Jon I'm not going to run to Angie. I just don't think it's very funny. I'm glad you got a laugh out of it but I didn't find it funny at all.  Go back to the hospital."

We walked to our cars together. She got in her car and I was just getting into mine when I heard her call my name. She walked over to me and stood in front of me

"Maybe this will give you some motivation. You bugged me for 2 years...here"

She handed me her phone and I nearly dropped it. I felt the grin creep up on my face as I stared at the picture.

"Angie sent that to me last week. She looks just like you."

I stared at the picture for what felt like a long time. She held out her hand to take the phone back. I grabbed her hand, pulled her to me and hugged her tight. She graciously hugged back and pulled away, taking her phone. I got in the car and headed back to the hospital. I went up to Angie's room and walked in. I headed straight to her side. Colby had gone somewhere and she was asleep. I took her hand and held it to my heart

"Ang...are you awake?"