Addicted

Going Home

I rest my head on Jon's shoulder and listened to music. I couldn't wait to get home. I looked up and he had fallen asleep. I couldn't help, but smile. It was pretty rare for him to fall asleep on the plane, but he's been going non stop lately so I'm not surprised. I wrapped my arms around his arm and cuddled close. I knew that this would be our last trip together for a while. I was going home to stay and Jon was going home for his days off. I was going to hate being home alone all of the time, but that's what I get for getting pregnant.

Jon shifted and put his arm around me. I grinned and cuddled as close as I could. I loved that he let me cuddle as close as I wanted when I wanted. I started thinking about what it would be like to have a baby. I smiled wondering if he/she was going to look like me or Jon

"What are you smiling about down there?"

I giggled a little and looked up.

"Oh you're awake. I didn't realize. I was just thinking about our little upcoming family. Wondering if he or she would look like me or you"

"Well, it's going to be a boy. And he is going to look like me of course."

"And what if it's a girl?"

"It won't be. BUT if it was then she'd be beautiful like you, but tough like me."

I blushed and smiled. Jon calling me beautiul was always few and far between so when he did say it to me I always ended up blushing.  He hugged me and pecked my lips as the plane prepared for landing. Jon took my bag out of the overhead compartment and I dragged it along behind me as we made our way off of the plane. Of course we couldn't make it through the airport without a group of girls wanting their picture taken with him. I rolled my eyes and laughed. No one was paying any attention to me and that was just fine by me. I sat on the top of my suitcase and patiently waited. He finished up and walked over to me and smiled

"Thanks"

"For what?"

"For being patient and waiting."

"Of course silly. Where else am I gonna go? I'm just glad no one was noticing me."

"I wish no one would notice me most days."

I smiled as we made our way out to the cab to head home. I couldn't wait to be home and relax. I was kind of done with sleeping in hotels. Our bed was the best and I just wanted to flop in the middle of it and sleep forever.

"Ang?"

"Hmm?" I smiled with my eyes closed against his chest

"You know I'm only going to be home for a day or two."

I looked down sadly and frowned. I didn't really want to talk about that, but there was no avoiding it. I'll have him tonight and up until 1am tomorrow and then he was back on the road. I was scared to be alone all of the time. I had grown so used to having Jon with me all of the time that the idea of being alone was starting to feel overwhelming.

"Angie?  You still there?"

"Yeah. Sorry. I just got lost in thought. I know you're leaving again."

"But you know I'm going to be home on my days off and I'll be here as often as I can. I'm not going to just abandon you here to do this alone. We'll find ways to see each other. I promise."

He hugged me tight and kissed my cheek as the cab pulled up in front of the house. We got out and headed inside and I headed straight for the bedroom. I was exhausted and I just wanted to sleep. I crawled onto the center of the bed and sighed and closed my eyes. The familiar smell of peppermint gum was hovering over my face so I opened my eyes and smiled

"Hi. Can I help you?"  I giggled

He slowly leaned down and kissed me and smirked

"More like can I help you?"

"You can try"

"Challenge accepted"

Jon's POV:

I laid here watching Angie sleep while thinking about everything that's happened. I promised her so many times that I would change and that things between us would change. I just can't let her down this time. I feel like shit every time I break a promise I made to her. It's so much more important now than it ever was before. Not that it wasn't important from the start, but now that we're having a baby I feel like it's more important than ever. I felt her stir and then smile in her sleep. Wonder what she's dreaming about. I wrapped my arms around her tighter as she cuddled closer. I loved to have her right next to me like this. I was going to hate leaving her behind. I hadn't been on the road without Angie in a really long time. I was just hoping that I was going to be able to behave myself with the other divas. Chances are that she has April watching me like a hawk. Only time will tell if I can keep all of this up.