Sidnaaz an emotion

Chapter 56

Sid git tense seeing her crying like this she is a very strong woman she can face problems without even showing on her face and seeing her crying was something he can't stand he knows something must have happen due to which she is behaving like this something was definitely bothering her he knows what aarti said was too much to take but he knows her she would not react in such a way because of that only .

Asim and vikas came to them and saw sana crying they both sat on bed and ask sid what happen is she crying because of what aarti said .

Asim- bro sana itna kyu ro rahi hai haa aarti ne bola wo galat bola hai par uski aadat hai na aise sab ke maamle mein bolne ki to kya kar sakte hai ,sana tu uski baato par dhyaan mat de .

Vikas- haa khushi tujhe to pta hai na wo kaisi hai usse jab koi baat bolni hoti hai na wo dekhti nahi hai na hi sochti hai saamne wale ko itna hurt kar sakti hai tu chup ho jaa .

Sana hug him tighter Sid can feel she is very much disturbed about something .

Sid- baby meri taraf dekh ek baar bachha dekh na kya hua hai bta mujhe kuch aur bhi hua hai na kisi ne kuch kaha hai .

Vikas- kisi ne kuch bola kya isse sid.

Sid- pta nahi jab washroom mein thi tab to itna nahi ro rahi thi mai juice lene gaya tha bas aur dekha to ro rahi hai kuch bol bhi nahi rahi hai .

Asim- sana tu chup ho jaa hum band bajayenge uss aarti ki to dono milkr tu abhi shaant ho jaa.

Vikas- haa mai bhi help karunga aise kaise koi meri khushi ko kuch bhi bol sakta hai .

Sana didn't respond to them but hugging him .

Sid gave them hint to leave them alone for sometime , both went leaving the couple .

Sid- baby tujhe meri kasam rona band kar tu bilkul chup ho jaa aise tabyat aur kharab ho jaayegi while rubbing her back .

Sana slowly slowly stopped crying but still sobbing.

Sid hold her face and made her look at him her eyes were red and puffy due to continuous crying her face become red .

Sid- kya hua jaan bolegi bta mujhe kya hua kyu itna ro rahi hai .

Sana nodded in no .

Sid- mujhe nahi btayegi baby .

Sana again hugged him started crying again .

Sid kissed on her hair - acha acha pehle chup ho jaa rona band kar darling tabyat dekh eyes kitni red ho gai hai swell bhi ho gai hai pura face red ho gaya hai shant ho jaa mera bachha.

He made her sit on his lap and cover both of them with quilt in case someone came into bedroom area so he covered both of them like only only their upper body is visible.

Sana stopped crying but didn't said anything sid made her drink water

Sid- baby ab bta mujhe kya hua hai .

Sana - mai nahi reh sakti tere bina mai mar jaungi tere bina mai soch bhi nahi sakti tere bina jeene ki mujhe tu chaiye hi chaiye .

Sid- mai hoon baby tere saath humesha hoon kyu nahi honga tere saath tujhe lagta hai mai reh paunga tere bina kaha jaunga mai bta .

Sana- to sab kyu bol rahe hai tu aur mai saath nahi reh paayenge kyu wo baar baar bolte hai ki tu aur mai kanhi saath nahi ho sakte kyu sabko lagta hai tu mujhe chod dega kya tu bhi mujhe sabki tarah chod dedga mai nahi bardasht kar paungi mai maar dungi khudko .

Sid- shouted sana ye kya bakwas kar rahi hai mai nahi chodunga tujhe na aaj na kal na kabhi tu sirf meri hai aur mai sirf tera ye kisne bola tujhse bta mujhe abhi .

Sana- mai nahi jeena chati tere bina mujhe aisi life nahi chaiye jisme tu na ho mai soch bhi nhai sakti aisa .

Sid - baby sun shaant ho jaa pehle but sana cut him off .

Sana- sab chod dete hai pehle mummy papa ne chod dia tha phir dosto ne choda jab kaam mila to sabne controversy ke baad mud kar nahi dekha mujhe mai sab jhel gai par agar tu nahi hoga to mai kaise jiyungi mai nahi reh sakti mai nahi reh paungi .

Sid can sense something is very wrong with her someone must have said something to her due to which this reaction is coming from her .

Sid- hugs her dekh mai yahi hoon tu shaant ho jaa please tu aise mat kisi ki baat ko dil par le wo nahi jaante tu kya hai mere liye unhe nahi pta ki hum kya hai ek dusre ke liye humara rishta kya hai aur logo ke bolne se kya hota hai mai hoon na tere saath .

Sana- tu bhi mujhe chod dega jaise sab chod dete hai mai itni buri hoon ki koi mere saath nahi rehta maine aisa kya kia hai tu jo bolega mai wo karungi teri har baat manugi par tu mujhe mat chodna please , mai mar jaungi .

Sid knows she is having panic attack he just grab some pills from the side drawer and tried to give her but she jerked his hands .

Sana- nahi chaiye ye nahi cahiye tu cahiye .

Sid- take another pills and grab her pull her and open her mouth forcefully and put it in her mouth but sana through that away spitting ,sid knows he need to give her medicine fast she is getting out of control and people in the house shouldn't see her like that .

He take another set of pills crushed it with his thumb and pushed it inside her mouth and forcefully made her drink water and hold her nose so she would swallow it ,she take the content sid take her in the hug .

After few minutes she started to calm down sid cleans her face .

Sid- jaan ab thk lag raha hai .

Sana- nodded her head.

Sid want to know what is bothering her but can't risk if she again panics so he dropped the thought but decide to talk with her later for sure he laid her down and patted her head .

few moments later sana take his palm and kissed and gesture him to lie down with her .

Sana - mai jab washroom mein thi tab rashmi aai boli kuch baat karni hai maine bola bol usne bola usne suna jo aarti ne bola aur boli kadwa hai par sach hai ki tu sab ke saath aisa hi hai jaisa mere saath hai sabke saath aise hi flirt karta hai aur tu mujhe chod dega wo boli ki use pta hai ki mai tere liye kya feel karti hoon aur tujhe kisi ke emotions ki value nahi hai aur agar by chance hum saath ho bhi jaate hai to jyada time saath nahi rahenge.

Mujhe tujh par doubt nahi hai mai jaanti hoon tu kaisa hai in sab se behtar teri biwi hoon pehchanti hoon tujhe pta hai tu kya kar sakta hai kya nahi tu kabhi kisi ka bhi dil jaan kar nahi dhukhayega khud hurt ho jaayega par kisi aur ko nahi karega .

Mujhe ye bura laga usne aur aarti ne jab divorce ki baat boli mujhe tujh par bharosa hai par apni kismat par nahi maine bohot kuch khoya hai tujhe pta hai ki maine kaise apne aap ko tinka tinka kar kar wapas joda hai tere bina mera koi wajood nahi hai tujhe khone ke khyaal se bhi darr lagta hai isliye jab wo baat aai to dimaag nahi chala sab blank ho gaya saying so her eyes again became wet .

Sid eyes were wet but listen to her calmly seeing her crying again he nodded in no .

He hugs her tightly as he knows what she feels at that moment and he can't see her like this again he felt she is again slipping back to that dark world he is shaken.

No he will not let her go there with great difficulty he pull her out from her depression he will do anything for her .

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