Sidnaaz an emotion

Chapter 95

Sana- mai thk hoon kyu itna pareshaan hai mujhe pta hai kal phir se over reaction aa gaya mera par mai thik hoon tu tension na le .

Sid- kal tujhe uss halat mein dekh kar khud ko maar daalne ka mann kar raha tha tujhe phir se ussi jagah usi tarah tadapte dekha mai nahi dekh sakta tujhe aise wo bhi meri wajah se wo itna bura tha ki mai samajh bhi paa raha tha kya karu kisse bolu kya kahu kuch nhai bas tu dikh rahi thi rote hue apne aap ko rok nahi paa raha tha tere paas aane se aur tu aane nahi de rahi thi sab meri galti thi mujhe nahi karna tha wo sab pta nahi mera dimaag kharab ho gaya tha aisa laga ki sab thik ho jaayega tu aake mujhe maaregi par baby sachhi mujhe nahi pta tha ki tujhe already wo cheez itna affect kar chuki hai tu mujhse baat bhi nahi kar rahi thi bolne ko ready nahi thi to mujhe laga wo best hai mujhe nahi pta tha ki wo tujhe itna hart kar dega sorry baby sorry mai tujhe kabhi hurt nahi kar sakta mai soch bhi nahi sakta ki meri wajah se tujhe koi problem aye ya tu hurt ho par wo sab ho gaya mai nahi rok paya wo sab sorry maaf kar de mujhe .

Sana- bas bas shaant ho jaa kyu itni tension le raha hai mai thk hoon dekh tere  saamne hoon .

Sid- nahi kal jo hua uske baad tu mujhe maar chahe gaaliyan de par tu apne ander ka sab kuch mujh par nikal de apne ander kuch mat rakh baby apne aap ko hurt mat kar mai nahi dekh sakta tujhe suffer karte hue bas bohot ho gaya hai hum iss show mein nahi rahenge gahr chalte hai yaha tere liye thk nahi hai .

Sana- sabse pehle to apne ander se ye guilt nikal de ki kal jo bhi hua wo teri wajah se hua tune kuch galat nahi kiya galti meri thi haa mai hurt thi tere behavior se bohot bura laga mujhe par mujhe tujhse aakar baat karni chaiye thi mere ander jo kuch chal raha tha wo tujhe btana chiaye the par maine nahi kia kyuki kahi na kahi meri ego aa jaati hai par tu humesha sabse pehle mujhe rakhta hai apne ego se apne gusse se yaha tak ki khud se bhi pehle tu mujhe rakhta hai sab bolte hai ghar pe ki maine bohot jhela hai par tune aur maa ne mujhse jyada jhela hai sabse jyada tune kyuki tune mujhe aise dekha hai jaise mai khud ko dekhu to shayad nafrat karne lagu khud se uske baad bhi tu mujhse pyaar karta hai mai paaglo ki tarah behave karti thi cheeze phekti thi tujhe nocha bhi hai jab tu rokta tha aur bhi bohot kuch jhela hai tune .

Mera har nonsense attitude jab mujhe mere maa-baap ne bhi chod dia tha koi nahi tha tab tune mera haath thaama tha koi nahi karta kisi ke liye itna jitna tune mere liye kia hai bachhe ke jaise rakha mujhe apne haatho se khaana khilaya mere pair dabaye mere baal comb kiye sab kuch kia hai mere sabse bure time mein tu tha mere saath mai sirf khud se lad rahi thi par tu har kisi se lada humare liye un rishte daaro se jinhone mujhe pagal kaha uss nurse  se friends se sab se  tu jo karta hai mere liye wo mai khud ke liye bhi nahi kar sakti hoon apni jaan se jyada mujhe pyaar kiya hai tune har insaan har cheez se upar mai hoon tere liye aur tu mujhe hurt karega tu khud ko hurt karta hai taaki na hurt ho jaau mai tune jo bhi kiya wo bohot soch kar kiya hoga sab calculate karke kia hoga par mai hi aise react kar  gai mera bas nahi raha khud par khud ke emotions par wi mujh pat haavi ho gaye aur maine wo sab kar diya mai nahi karna chati thi react par wo sab kuch itna tha mere ander bohot kuch tha aisa lag rha tha ki mai ghut rahi hoon ye sab sahi hai kyuki sab ek gi baat bol rahe the sab fake bolte hai bohot kuch bolte hai tujhe to sab pta hai ki mai sab kuch sun leti hu bas wo word mujhe trigger karta hai maine bohot socha dimaag kharab ho gaya tha mera mai sahi se soch nahi pa rahi thi aur phir wo sab hua to mera reaction aa gaya tu khud ko blame mat kar tu kabhi galat nahi soch sakta.

Sid- par wo reaction to meri wajah se  hi aaya na  tu nahi karti react agar wo sab nahi hota mai wo sab nahi bolta to Tu khud ko nahi maarti khud ko hurt nahi karti tune khud ko maara mai nahi dekh paa raha tha tujhe waise mann kar rha tha ki bas tabhi nikal jau tujhe yaha se le kar pr uss waqt scene ho jaata wo sab bohot galat hua hai aur meri hi wajah se hua hai aur mai bohot sharminda hoon usse le kar par mai abhi tujhse sirf maafi maang sakta hoon aur kuch nahi tu jo kahe mai wo karne ko tayar hoon.

Sana- jo khaungi wo karega dekh le.

Sid- haa jo bolegi karunga tu bol bas.

Sana- sabse pehle mujhe hug kar tight se maine bohot miss kiya mere personal pillow ko mai wo hug chhati hoin jisse mujhe sukoon milta hai.

Sid hugs her.

Sana- ab sun tune kuch galat nahi kia kuch tune jo uss waqt sahi tha wohi kia agar nahi karta to abhi tak mera dimaag wahi hota Aur mai aur jyda pareshaan hoti rehti aur abhi bhi humari ladai hi ho rahi hoti aur yaha se jaane ki baat nikal de apne mann se kyuki hum yaha jo hum real hai wo logo jo dikhane aaye the par yaha bohot kuch seekhne ko bhi mila hai ye sab hum bahar kabhi nahi seekh paate kaise kaise log hote hai kaisa hota hai sab kuch seekha hai.

Aur ab mai light feel kat rahi hoon kyuki mere ander ka nikal gaya sab kuch haa galat way mein aaya wo sab bahar par koi baat nahi wo bhi dekh lenge saath mein.

Sid- tu sahi mein thk hai na yaha se ab jaaye ya baad mein sabse pehle doctor ke paas jayenge tere.

Sana- chalenge par tere jeetne ke baad par sabse pehle Tu apna dimaag sadana band kar dekh aakhen kaise suj gai hai puri raat soya nahi aise gi baitha raha kitni problem hui hogi par abhi bhi mera soch raha hai ab mai isse jyada kya saboot doon ki tu mujhe kabhi hurt nahi kar sakta jaan ke.

Sid- haa thk hai samajh gaya mai tu meri sirf jaan nahi hai jahan hai mera mai nahi dekh sakta  tujhe rota hua ya pareshaan hota hua tu aage se mujhe sab btayegi aur abhi bhi jo tere dimag mein hai sab bol abhi.

Sana- haa bata dungi abhi tu yaha let mere paas sahi se aur ache se hug kar feel lene de.

Sid did as she told him to now he is feeling calm after talking to her together they will handle all the strom that are in their way and will also pass them .

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