NANNY FOR MENDES.

Eighty-nine

𝓕𝓻𝓲𝓭𝓪𝔂....

𝗦𝗛𝗔𝗪𝗡'𝗦 𝗣𝗢𝗩

It's 4 PM here, which means it's almost it's 10 AM in Canada.

"You awake?" I text Soph.

"Yes."

I get a Facetime call from her.

"Hey, babe." She says.

"Hey, beautiful."

"How was your interview?"

"It was great. Yesterday's was great, too. We're good, thank God. And I think we're gonna have a branch here in Spain, which means our business will be recognized throughout all of Europe."

"That's amazing, baby. Congratulations. You deserve it. You worked hard for it."

"Thanks, baby. Did you eat yet?"

"No. I only woke up ten minutes before you texted me."

"Then go eat, and I'll take a nap."

"Okay, baby. You must be tired."

"Fuck yes. The time zone gap is tiring. I didn't adjust to it yet."

"Well, you're coming back two days later. You won't have to, anyway."

If only you knew.

"Yeah, baby."

"Okay, I'll go make breakfast. By the way, I went to Mom's yesterday."

"Oh."

"Yeah. I'm sorry I didn't tell you."

"No, it's fine."

"I haven't been the best daughter lately, so I called her yesterday and she told me to come. So I packed my and Bear's things and we came here."

Bear?

"You took Bear with you?"

"Of course I did. I told you I'll take care of him. He's my son, Shawn. How can a mother just leave her son to go wherever? I took him with me. Mom adores him, too."

Wow. Just fucking wow. When she mentioned going to her mother's, I thought she left Bear at Aaliyah's. But no, she did not.

"I don't know what I did to fucking deserve you. Hell, I don't even deserve you. I love you."

"I love you, too, baby. Now go take your nap and let me get breakfast ready."

"Okay. Bye."

"Bye, baby."She blows me a kiss.

Wow.

I laugh and we hang up.

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𝗦𝗢𝗣𝗛𝗜𝗔'𝗦 𝗣𝗢𝗩

Yesterday, after I ended my call with Shawn, I kept thinking about our sex life—which is nonexistent.

I need to give him his needs, I know that. He's a man and he has needs. Yes, he's been patient and gentle with me, but he definitely needs sex like every other man. But.... I'm still not ready. And if I'm being honest, I want to wait until marriage. Yes, I know what you'll think about it. 'You're old-fashioned.'
But I think, after marriage, is when I'll be absolutely ready for it.

I want to have sex with Shawn, just as much as he wants to have sex with me. But, what if we ever break up? What if something happens to us? At least, when we're married, they'll be some kind of commitment. I don't want to just lose my virginity without being sure about the future of the relationship. That's why I never had sex with Adam.