NANNY FOR MENDES.

Ninety-two

𝗦𝗛𝗔𝗪𝗡'𝗦 𝗣𝗢𝗩

I open my eyes. All of my body hurts like hell. What the fuck happened?

I look ahead. All I see is...damage. Bodies all over the ground. Blood, torn clothes and baggage. My own clothes are torn.

Oh, my God! Yes! The plane crash.

Oh fuck. Noah. Where the hell is he?

I get off of the ground and look around for him.

"Noah!" I yell his name. No answer. So I check the bodies on the ground.

Oh, my. Dead bodies. Not just dead, their bodies are dismembered.

All of a sudden, I throw my guts up. The dead bodies I saw were just.....

I look around for Noah again. I can't find him. Fuck! I can't fucking lose my best damn friend. Damn it!

Suddenly, I glimpse Noah. I walk over to him, pain in my whole damn body. "Noah?"

No answer.

"Noah?!" I kneel in front of his body, and yell his name.

I shake his arms, "Noah! Noah!" No, no. NO!

My arms shake and tears are running down my cheeks.

"Shawn?" I think I hear him say. I'm not sure he said it because it was too low to hear.

"Noah?"

"Shawn...." He says, more loudly.

"Oh, my God! Noah!"

He tries to get up, but I lie on the ground next to him.

I wipe my tears off before he sees them. I don't want to have to explain to him why I was crying.

"Were you crying?"

"No."

"Oh, my. You were crying. For me."

"Shut the fuck up."

"Okay, fine."

"So what the fuck are we gonna do?"

"We wait. I'm sure it's all over the news now."

"All over the damn news?"

"Yeah..."

"What if it was known that we were on this flight and our names are all over the news now?"

"Yeah....so?"

I'm about to explain, when he realizes what I'm trying to say.

"Oh fuck."

"Yeah. Soph. Aaliyah. Bear. Mom and Dad. Your parents."

"Damn it."

For a solid minute, we're silent.

"Can we not speak anymore? I'm tired as fuck and talking requires effort."

"With pleasure."

And we stop talking. And we wait......

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𝗦𝗢𝗣𝗛𝗜𝗔'𝗦 𝗣𝗢𝗩

I open my eyes. I see a room. A familiar room. My and Shawn's bedroom. What the hell am I doing here?

Then, I remember it all. And I start crying again.

I have to get off the damn bed and go support his family.

So I do just this. I see Karen first.