Adventuress Love | S.M & C.C

Fake Love

Shawn's POV

Being with her was all I could really ever ask for, this was something I've been longing for.

But now, having her in my arms, with the beautiful remembrance that she was my girlfriend - mine, made things ten times better.

We spent the day watching the most cheesy movies and cuddling on my couch. It was peaceful. Little moments of soft touches and chaste kisses were made and sweet words were spoken under the dim light that glowed over our faces from the tv.

She pushed up from my chest, eying me with her mouth dropped.

"I-I lo-..." her eyes widened and so did mine honestly, "I love...this. Doing this and only this." She fixed her attention back on the tv, her body still propped up.

The thought of her saying those three words made my heart flutter. Was it a little soon? Yes. But that didn't matter.

I am certain that I love her - everything about her. She made me feel everything. She was truly all I needed. It scared me sometimes and I knew it scared her too that we were magnetically connected somehow but that fear turned into butterflies when our lips touched - for me it did, anyways.

"Me too. I love this." I cuddled her up closer to my body, placing a kiss onto her head and continuing to watch whatever it was that we were watching.

An hour passed and the credits were rolling on the large tv screen that illuminated the living room.

Small snored were heard from on top of my body, I looked down at the angel sleeping, cuddling close to my chest - even asleep, she held on for dear life. It was precious and a little heartbreaking to know that she had a fear of me leaving.

I tucked my hand under her knees and my other around her shoulders as I slowly and carefully brought her up to my bedroom. She shuffled a bit and I turned to go back into the bathroom to change even though I knew fully well that she's seen me naked and didn't mind.

We never talked about sex in a sense that involved us and when we did, it was inappropriate jokes being made by me and her playing along. We were taking things slow and I liked that, it made me feel like what we had was real and special because it was.

We wanted every single touch, kiss, word to be special, even if it was something so simple.

Sex wasn't all that simple but knowing that we were so slow with things like that meant that we wanted to wait for the right moment.

Even if she asked for it now, I'm sure I'd say yes. I know I would and that wasn't just me being horny talking. I wanted every part of her and I was willing to wait to have that.

What I meant by seeing me naked was that we changed in front of each other all the time. We didn't really care. Her body was incredible but that was besides the point.

"Don't go," she whispered, sleepily. Her hand weakly around my wrist. I turned back around, kissing her soundly before getting back up.

"I'm just going to go change...my clothes are in the bathroom." I smiled. It was obvious that she had anxiety about people leaving her and it clenched at my heart to know but she didn't need to have that anxiety with me because I loved her, as far as she knew - I didn't, but I did. With all my heart and everything I had.

I wasn't going to leave her, not now, not ever. I wouldn't want to and I certainly didn't need to.

She nodded, closing her eyes once more.

I shifted my way to the bed, pulling her body closer to mine. She turned to rest her head on my chest, my hand running down her back and then back to her hair to twirl with.

"I love you." She mumbled into my chest, falling into a slumber.

Camila had a tendency to spit out random things when she was tired. It was crazy but it was true.

Last night, she said something about goats flying and the night before she said that she would leave me for Prince Eric any day. I know he was just a character in a Disney movie but it made my blood boil.

She explained that she had no control over her tired body and she just said the most random things, most being nonsense.

Was this one of those things? I hoped so.

I didn't know how to address it though. Would I even mention it in the morning? I'd have to. I wanted our exchange of those three words for so long now but I knew she wasn't ready and even if she was, I was too scared.

Her saying those words, made me want to cry tears of joy but it also made me want to vomit considering that I had no idea if she meant it or not.

She was half awake, not even - so who knows if she'd even remember saying those words.

I wanted to believe that she meant what she said and that was a risk, considering I could still be turned down of that offer of love if I said anything.

"I love you." I kissed her head, knowing damn well that she couldn't hear me but it felt so good to say out loud.

Although, I wished that I heard those three words come out of her mouth again. This time, she would be fully awake. Her eyes would be sparkling, beautifully and her smile, wide.

"...always." I shut my eyes while saying my last word to her for the night. I sighed, knowing that this was going to be hard to just sleep on.

A/n

Sooooo...that happened.

I'm not sure if you could predict this already but next chapter will not only involve Camila and Shawn talking about the "I LoVe YoU" scene but things go down...

...when I say down, I mean it. Down fucking hill.

Literally.

Hold on to your hats people! AND PLEASE...FOR THE LOVE OF GOD, DO NOT HATE ME!!!!