Unleashed in February (Behind The Month #1)

19

19, What I want

Isang mainit na bagay ang yumapos sa ilalim ng hita ko at gumapang pailalim sa ulo ko. I groaned and moved a bit, but stopped because of the warmth I gained from it. I purred and enjoyed the satisfying feeling it's giving me.

Seconds later, my body felt floating until it was rested on a soft mattress. Mabagal ang pagkawala ng mainit na bagay sa katawan ko. Kinusot ko ang mata ko at mabilis na nawala sa akin ang paglakbay ng isip sa maaliwalas ngunit madilim na bagay.

My head and eyelids were both heavy when I tried to roam my eyes around. The only light that helps me see clearly enough is the lampshade beside the cold bed. Malambot ang kumot na tumabing sa katawan ko, tila instrumento para maagapan ang lamig na natamo mula sa kama.

A warm breath blew on my face as the blanket was held by a shadow of man near me, completely covering my body up.

"Hope..." I called, almost a whisper.

May kaunting buhok sa noo nito ang bagsak na ngayon at marahang tumatama sa kanyang mata. He left me and made his way to the air-con and did something to it.

I closed my eyes and held my breathing. Isang malakas na buga ng hangin ang pinakawalan ko pagkatapos noon.

I felt his heavy foosteps nearing once more. Lumubog ang kabilang parte ng kama kaya marapat lang na balingan ko siya sa kabila ng mabibigat na talukap.

I turned my head a bit to see him. His eyes were closed and he seemed innocent as he sat on the bed, his back pressed on the backrest. Ilang dangkal ang layo nito sa'kin dahil nasa magkabilang dulo kami. His knees were folded, and arms loosely hung on them. Nakatingala ito. I can hear each inhale and exhale he does.

"Anong ginagawa mo..." tahimik kong sambit.

This is an unlikely move of him. When we drink, he'd always make sure he's not with me in one room. He won't sleep with me on the same bed, literally. Kahit ang pag-upo niya ngayon sa kama nang kasama ko ay ayaw niya noon pa man. This action he's doing now is new to me. Nakita ko ang pagtalon ng prominenteng bilog sa kanyang lalamunan.

"Aalis din ako." he said in a hoarse voice. "Saglit lang..."

I pursed my lips and quietly turned my back on him. Maybe it's the alcohol that's drowning my other thoughts. I was positive in dozing to a deep sleep this time when the bed was given a harsh move. My jaw dropped a little when a heavy weight made its way across my waist.

Mabigat ito ngunit kalaunan ay nagbago dahil bahagya itong umangat, tila takot na masaktan ako.

Dumoble ang kabog ng dibdib ko at ilang ulit akong natigilan sa paghinga. The only thing that provides light was taken away when Hope switched it off. We are left with total darkness and it only made me lift my emotions more.

Gumalaw ako para ipahiwatig na gising pa ako.

"Sshh..." malamyos niyang sabi.

Hindi kumilos ang kamay niya sa ibabaw ng aking tiyan. It was like he was careful not to cause any pain to me. It was like he was fully aware of how thick and heavy it is for my tiny waist.

Yet he doesn't know how this affects me. Tumakbo na ang alak na lumamon sa utak ko at hindi ko na mahabol. Hindi na iyon ang nagdadala ng init sa katawan ko. I hate to admit it but this is striking a serious part of my senses as a woman.

I inhaled deeply and dropped my left hand on top of his. I applied a little force to lift it up and free myself from his hold. Sa halip na sumuko siya ay tila mas nabuhayan pa sa ginawa ko. He clasped his fingers on mine and used his strength to wrapped his arms around me again. Kasama na ang kamay ko ngayon sa hawak niya.