Unleashed in February (Behind The Month #1)

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21, Believed

For two straight days, I finally joined my parents in helping with the outreach activities of the church. Nagbigay ng tulong gaya ng pagkain, damit at laruan sa mga batang aeta sa isang sitiong tinitirahan nila.

It was a tiring experience but it was worth it.

The night after our second day, I received an invitation from Hope's cousin. It wasn't a formal one written on a paper though. It was just an event created on Facebook and I was included there on the supposed visitors.

Celina Olivares & Froi Andrada's Engagement

I looked at that in amazement. I read it again and it only made my heart jump more. They're amazing. Their love is wonderful. My heart melts because I feel so happy for them.

Mayroon pang nakasulat doon kaya binasa ko rin.

This is a private invitation. Celina, my brother's girlfriend doesn't know what will happen on January 4. She has no idea that you are all invited. We have chosen those who are close to us, we wanted to make it intimate. It would be a surprise for Celina along with the engagement itself. I hope you'll be able to join us! God bless!

January 4, 2020

Dueño Paraiso Hotel and Beach Resort, Iba, Zambales

I know I'm close with Hope's family but I didn't really think I'd be invited to a special event like this. But it makes me feel happy. I'm freaking invited! I wonder how would it feel to watch a couple being engaged on my very eyes.

Ang saya siguro nun.

I anticipated so much on the event. But because new year's celebration is just around the corner, my mind could only entertain one happy moment at a time so it was what occupied me a lot.

For this year's new year's eve, Kuya Benj and his family will celebrate it with Ate Maggie's family. Ganoon din sina Kuya Oxenn na doon naman sa side ni Ate Mirrae. It kind of made our parents sad although they didn't tell us anything. It's just that it's not hard to see from their faces.

"Last year, dito naman sila." sabi ko.

I'm with mama and Ate Apple now. Ako ang naglalagay ng marinated pork sa bbq stick habang sila naman ang bahala sa fruit salad. Ate simply nodded and looked at our mom. Tahimik siya.

It's December 31 today. Kakauwi lang ni Ate Apple kahapon at siya lang din, hindi kasama ang boyfriend. Ang pagdiriwang namin ng bagong taon sa mga nakalipas na taon ay iba-iba. I'd say it's because my two brothers have their own family now. Just last year, they were with us and we were all complete for the celebration. And now, apat na lang kami.

Maybe it's really like that. I cannot control the time and the lives of the people around me. It's their choice to decide where to spend such special occasions. I just can't help but to feel a little sad too. We used to be complete when I was young. Paano pa kaya kung magpakasal na rin ang ate ko? Pampalubag loob na lang talaga ang mga bagong miyembro ng pamilya ngayon.

We took some pictures as we celebrated the new year. Papa opened a bottle of whiskey while we're watching the beautiful scenery on the dark night. Ang mga kapitbahay namin ay hindi magkamayaw sa kanilang mga fireworks. A sexy tulip glass is on my hand as I swayed a bit on the sound of a classic jazz music played by papa.

I was wearing a red dress with black tiny polka dots and kimono sleeves. My cleavage showed a bit but I didn't care much. Nasa bahay lang naman ako.

More picture taking, drinking, and screaming of "happy new year!" and it's done. Kumain pa ako nang kaunti bago umakyat. I wanted to eat our roasted chicken but sadly, I don't wanna make a mess on my bed or anywhere. Puking is just nice and acceptable when somebody else will take care of it.