Burning Desire (Alastor X Reader)

Chapter 29: Unforeseen.

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Nope. Non. Não. Nie. Nein. Нет. Nada ! Nothing !

Nothing happened, it was just a bad fucking dream and you were about to wake up. Yes, you would quietly wake up in your bed and forget this awful nightmare. Yes, that's it! Nothing happened, you didn't do anything, in fact? you didn't even see the fucking deer all day since you were just having the most sordid dream of your afterlife.

...

That's what you said to yourself all the way to your apartment in the hope that it would reassure you.

All the demons were pretty much baffled by the fact that you were whispering to yourself. Many wondered what had happened to you because no one saw you that "disturbed.". None of them had dared to talk to you, there was a horrible electric feeling in the air and many demons felt that you could explode at any moment. So it was best for them to just let you go without too much fuss.

After 2 endless hours of walking, you finally recognized a street leading into your territory. With the grace of a zombie in need of energy, you entered your building and walked up the stairs with an empty look.

As soon as you recognized the door of your apartment your eyes glowed with desperate relief. You hurriedly took out your keys and you quickly opened your door before slammed it behind you.

Your back stuck to it for a few moments while you looked at the floor with an empty look. You felt your nerves letting go through the uncontrollable tremors of your exhausted body.

Your glassy eyes stared at your hands in distress. Unconstitutionally, you moved your right hand to your lips.

What had you done?

You lowered your head as your tremors intensified.

This was not normal! It wasn't worthy of you! It was... it was...

With fury you placed one of your hands on your face and angrily you grabbed a few strands of your hair while tears ran from your eyes.

A betrayal. A stab in the back and nothing else!

"I'm so Dumb! "You cursed yourself as you walked into your living room.

You dried your tears and decided to forget that awful day, and for that, all means were good.

You opened a cupboard and took out several bottles of alcohol in varying degrees and then prepared the most violent mixture you could invent. You added a few ice cubes and started to drink it as if it were water. Of course it tasted awful, but you didn't care. You started again with it, changing the doses and not putting any ice cubes in it this time, and you started again and again, until you couldn't get up anymore. You couldn't even see the bottles properly anymore.

You pushed a little moan of pain because your head was hurting like hell.

Yeah, you pushed a little too hard, but you got what you wanted. You let your body crawl into your couch with fatigue and closed your eyes.

You really were pathetic.

Your glass crashed to the floor because you didn't have enough energy to hold it in your hands, however you didn't give a shit about it. You lay down completely and took a cushion to hold it close to you as a way to comfort yourself.

Gradually you felt yourself floating in an unknown place. You couldn't move or open your eyes, strangely enough you didn't care the least bit. You just wanted to sleep and nothing else.

Unfortunately a deafening ringing suddenly sounded in your eardrums and you felt yourself falling into the void. Your body slammed hard against the floor of your living room and the pain forced you to open your eyes in panic.