Arrange Marriage With My Boss (On Going)

Chapter 47: Suspicion

Isang linggo na ang nakaraan na ganoon palagi ang senaryong bubungad sa akin, the feeling of throwing up something but there's nothing to throw of. Napaangat ako ng tingin sa salamin sa harap ko matapos magmumog habang pinapakalma ako ni Jack, he's rubbing my back using his right hand and his rubbing my wrist with his left hand. I don't know but the past few days, Jack rubbing my wrist is one of the way for me to calm down. Napatitig ako sa kaniya mula sa repleksyon niya sa salamin, he is in my left corner standing behind me. His eyes were fixed on me, worries were visible on it.

I don't know what is happening to me, but I have so many what if's and suspicions in my mind. What if may malala akong sakit? What if my cancer ako? Or what if... I'm pregnant? Dalawang linggo ng delayed ang menstruation ko at may nangyari din sa amin, so it's possible. Will Jack accept it? Will he accept the baby? Will he still love me?

Sabay kaming napatingin sa isa't-isa nang tumunog ang ringtone ng phone niya. Napatingin ako sa kaniya sa may salamin at gano'n din siya. Hindi siya umalis sa pwesto niya at nanatiling nakatingin sa akin. Hindi rin siya tumigil sa kaniyang ginagawa kanina.

Tatlong araw ko na ring napapansin na palagi siyang may kausap sa phone niya, whenever I ask who is it, he always divert the question into something and he always says 'It's nothing, just from the office' so I just shrugged it off and don't mind it. But I still can't help but to be worried about it. He's also prohibiting me from using any gadgets, he always have an alibi whenever I want to look at my phone or at my laptop. Ang sabi niya ay baka makasama lang daw iyon sa akin, at bakit naman makakasama iyon sa akin at sa kaniya hindi? Hindi kaya, may babae siya at dahil kalat na sa socmed ay ayaw niyang hawakan ko ang phone ko dahil baka makita ko?

Napailing ako, shrugging off all of my thoughts.

No. He won't do those kind of stuffs. I trust him. And he loves me.

"You okay now? Hmm?"sabi niya saka tumigil sa ginagawa at hinaplos naman ng marahan ang aking buhok sakto namang pagtigil rin ng phone niya sa pagriring.

Tumango ako sa kaniya at nginitian siya.

Dahan-dahan niyang hinapit ang aking bewang at saka ako itinago sa kaniyang dibdib. Niyakap ko siya sa kaniyang bewang at napapikit dala ng antok, alas syete na ng umaga pero inaantok pa rin ako. Parang gusto ko nalang manatili sa mga bisig niya, gaya ngayon at dito matulog.

"Can I sleep?" I asked him while yawning.

"Hmm, of course. Let's go back to the bed, love..." he said.

I humed as an answer.

He carried me me in his arms like we're just a newly wed couples. Napakapit ako sa kaniyang batok at sumiksik sa kaniyang leeg, I'm sleepy. I want to sleep already.

Hindi ko na namalayang inilapag na pala ako ni Jack sa kama naramdaman ko nalang ang lambot ng kama sa aking likod.

Bago pa ako tuluyang makatulog ay naramdaman ko pa ang pagdampi ng malambot na bagay sa aking noo at ang mga ibinulong niya na hindi ko na naintindihan pa at ang muling pagtunog ng ringtone ni Jack sa kaniyang cellphone.

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I am not surprise when I saw her asleep already when I put her on the bed, I kiss her forehead gently as I whisper "I love you" and slowly caress her belly. I notice her hips were wider than before and her breast got bigger. I really have this strong feeling that she is pregnant. A smile crept on my lips of that thought.

I was alarmed when my phone suddenly ring, I immediately answered it, scared of the taught Zoey might wake up.

"Hello--"

["Sir, I'm sorry for calling at this hour but we have an update"] said by Hanz, Hanz Fahey, remember him? One of my men/closest friend. As I answer the call, I got out of the bed and went to the restroom, I don't want to wake Zoey up. Hindi katulad noong huling tawag niya, kung dati ay off duty siya ngayon naman ay on duty na siya. Actually madalas na siyang naka-duty, simula nung may nagtangka sa buhay ni Zoey.

"What is it?"

["Napatigil na po ang paggakalat ng issue niyo sa socmed, and we're still tracking down the culprit"]

I sigh, feeling relief.

"Any update on tracking that fvcking bvllsh8t down?" I ask while running my fingers through my hair. Whoever that sh8t is, I will fvcking make sure that he or she will pay for what they've done.

["For now, the culprit's identity is still unidentified, sir. But we have some things that can lead us on discovering who it is"]

"Do all of you can to track it down. I want to announce it myself, and besides..."

"I don't want to keep a secret from my wife anymore" I added as I stare at my own reflection at the mirror. I'm afraid she might judge me for who I am, but the thought that she loves me for being me... It is giving me courage to tell her the truth, if she truly loves me. She will accept me, wholly. She will accept my flaws. She will accept me for whoever I am.

["Copy, Sir"] Hanz answered.

"Good, thank you" I said as I nod as an answer, as if he is just in front of me.

I ended the call as I said those words.

I've decided what to do already. I'm gonna tell everyone the truth and the first one to know it... will be Zoey.

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Naalimpungatan ako nang makapa kong wala sa kama si Jack, I want to hug him...

Napabangon ako at nagsimulang hanapin siya sa may banyo nang may marinig akong ingay doon.

Nang makalapit ako ay kakatok na sana ako nang marinig ko ang mga sinabi ni Jack.

"Do all of you can to track it down. I want to announce it myself, and besides..." He want to announce, what?

May hindi ba siya sinasabi sa akin?

"I don't want to keep a secret from my wife anymore"

W-what? A-anong ibig niyang s-sabihin? What secret?

"Please stay, no matter what happen's, please love"

"Sooner or later you will find out. Just please.... This is the first time again that I would say this word, just to make sure that you won't leave me.... Promise me, that you will never leave me, please I can't afford to lose you....You're my life, my everything....my wife"

Those words that he said before when we're walking through the hallway, going to the basement came inside of my mind. My eyes grew wider as It hits me. Kaya ba... sa tuwing magbubukas ako ng gadget ko ay ayaw niya akong payagan? I-is my s-suspicions were... r-right?

H-He is keeping something from me.

"Good, thank you"

When does he want to tell it to me?! M-may t-tiwala ba talaga s-siya sa a-akin?

Does Jack trust me? Huh, the right question is...

Did he even trust in me?

Parehas kaming nagulat nang buksan niya ang pintuan ng banyo.

"L-love..." kasabay ng pagbigkas niya no'n ay siya ring pagpatak ng luha ko na kanina pa pala naipon sa mga mata ko.