BDSM SOCIETY: Convicted To You

CHAPTER 41

"Alam mo ba kung bakit ko sinabi sa kaniya ang totoo?" I wrinkled my head.

"You're the one who fucking told her?!"

Salem just smirked. "Of course! Dahil ayokong magmukha siyang tanga sa harap niyo! She didn't deserve that! She fuckingly didn't deserve any of the betrayals and cheating things!" He wanted to punch me but he held the reign. "Sabihin mo nga sakin, may nangyari ba sa inyo ni Hali?"

"No," I answered right away. There was nothing that happened to us. Dinala ko siya sa Navotas dahil gusto kong timbangin ang nararamdaman ko. Gusto kong malaman kung sino ang mas matimbang.

"Hindi ko alam kung paano mo nagawa ang mga bagay na 'to kay Hari. You're an ass-fuckingly-hole, dude. You're keeping two women. And they're not just women, they're fucking sisters."

"Halijah...whenever she's with me, she calmed my life. She awakes such respect I could give to a woman. While, Hari, she awakes such heat I didn't know I had. I love them both in a different way I possibly can."

"No, you don't! Do you know what you feel towards them? You desire and kept Hari as a woman to warm your bed. And Hali to warm your heart. You love Hali but not to the point that you're willing to let go of your needs. You love Hali insufficiently Hari could provide. Ano sa tingin mo ang mararamdaman ni Hari kapag nalaman niyang katawan lang ang habol mo sa kaniya? That you don't really wish to marry her but concubine her!"

"It's not my intention!" galit kong sigaw. He's acting like he fuckingly knew everything where in fact he knew not a thing!

"Nobody wants to hear your fucking intention! Either way! You're hurting them nobody wants to believe you!"

"I love them."

"Then you mean love no one wants to know and nobody wants to be given off. Kung ganiyan ka magmahal, kung babae ako, hindi ko gugustuhing mahalin ng isang Hashim Nezcuda. Love must give us security. It must keep us calm. Love awakes thousands of emotions. It gives us heat. But most importantly, it must be felt in one person. Love is faithful. So, definitely, it's neither Hari and Hali. Let them go before it's too late. If you'll choose Hali, you won't be satisfied you will search the heat Hari had given you. What would she feel when she finds out that you're in her bosom while carnally thinking another woman? And if you choose the latter, you'll be hurting her you're keeping someone in your heart while bedding her."

I'm still confused and afraid to be left behind. I wanna choose the person I wanted to live my life with.

"You know what? Even if you don't have a pussy, I'll tell you. Fuck you, dude!"

I combed my hair frustratedly and guzzled the whiskey straight from the bottle. When Kiana came in.

"Sir, may gusto pong kumausap sa inyo."

"I don't wanna talk to fucking someone now! Tell the fucktard to leave!"

"Siguro tama na ang panahon na magkasama tayo para ma-realize mo ang dapat mong ma-realize." I signaled Kiana to leave us. "Alam kong siya na ang nandyan sa puso mo. Noong nakita ko ang bahay niyo, alam ko na ang sagot pero hindi ko sinabi because I want you to discover it yourself."

Tama siya. Noong dinala ako ni Hari sa resort, alam ko na ang sagot. Alam ko na kung sino ang pipiliin pero hindi ko nagawa. Nasaktan ko siya. At masyadong magulo ang pag-iisip ko kaya hindi ko nalang inamin. But I knew then that Hari was already the one I wanna live with. But I lied to her. Because I was guilty. Paano kung si Hali pala ang gusto kong makasama habambuhay? Ano ang mararamdaman niya? Tama si Salem, wala akong dapat na piliin sa kanila. But fuck! She's pregnant with my child and lost it and now she's in a coma! Paano ko pa siya haharapin pagkagising niya? She would surely hate me.