"Still hurts
To open up my eyes
To start my day
I still feel the warmth of you
Lying next to me..."
He's barely living. Nabubuhay nalang siya sa mga alaalang iniwan sa kaniya ni Hari. If not for their memories, he must have died from the moment he learned that his fiancee died. Nawalan siya ng anak. Nawalan ng mapapangasawa. Nawalan ng taong matatawag niyang kaniya lang. Ng taong umiintindi sa lahat ng ginagawa niya. He lost a woman he wanted to be with the mother of his children. Nawalan ng ina ang mga magiging anak niya sana.
"I still calculate the numbers
Up inside my head
Zero nine-dash twenty-three, two thousand thirteen..."
Kumawala ang isang butil na luha sa kaniyang mga mata as he strummed the guitar. Nang nawala si Hari ay parang namatay na rin siya. Hindi niya nga alam kung bakit pa siya nabubuhay.
"That's a day the good Lord
Wrapt you in His arms
The day He took you home
And left me all alone..."
The woman he loved had left him a year ago. Hindi niya man lang nasilayan ang maganda nitong mukha bago nawala. Hindi niya man lang nayakap ang abo nito bago sinaboy sa karagatan.
"But I still hold you close to me
I still breathe you when I breath
Still hear your voice
Call my name
Still see you smile in every memory..."
Halos mabaliw siya sa araw-araw. Nararamdaman niya pa init ni Hari katabi niya sa pagtulog. Nakikita niya pa ang mga ngiti nito. Ang bawat halakhak sa tuwing nagkakatuwaan sila. Her naughty remarks and seduction moves. Ramdam niya pa. Buhay na buhay pa ang mga alaala nilang dalawa.
"Still do the best I can
To still hold on to your hand
'Cause the love you still give me
Gets me through..."
Isang taon mahigit na simula nang tuluyan siyang nag-iisa. Pero parang kahapon lang nangyari ang lahat. Kasing presko ng isda sa palengke ang sugat sa puso niyang mientras niyang sinusubukang hilumin ay siya namang lalo itong sumasakit.
"And that's still enough
To make it through another day
Still loving you..."
Tumintindi ang sakit. Lalong bumibigat ang nararamdaman niya dahil nadadagdagan ito ng pangungulila sa fiancee niya. Parusa. Iyon ang nararamdaman niya habang lumilipas ang bawat araw.
"I still make our bed
Exactly how you show me
I still drive to our favourite spot
On Tuesday night
I still feed that old jukebox
And hit that wooden floor
Still dancing with you crazy
My patsy cline..."
Wala siyang iba na nakikita kundi si Hari. Sa bawat sulok ng lugar ay naiisip niya ang dalaga. He missed her. He missed her damn much every day without her by his side was a punishment to him.
"And for the moment
I still feel you in my arms
And we sway our night
To the beating of our hearts..."
Hari... His mind, body, and soul were screaming her name. Aching for her. His body has been aching for her. Her scorching touch was what his skin had been craving.
"And I still hold you close to me
I still breathe you when I breath
Still hear your voice
Call my name
Still see you smile in every memory
Still do the best I can
To still hold on to your hand
'Cause the love you give me
Gets me through..."
Habang unti-unti siyang nalulunod sa lungkot ay siya namang bawat luhang ipinapatak sa mga mata ng sekretarya niya.
"And that's still enough
To make it through another day
Still loving you
I find strength and knowing
That our love has no end
And when it's time for me to go
I see your face again..."
Kiana saw everything more than what she had to see. Isang taon na mahigit ang nangyari. Nakalimot na ang lahat pero ang amo niya ay hindi pa.
"And I will hold you close to me
Breathe you when I breath
I will hear your voice
Praise His name
Thank God that we loved in faith..."
BINABASA MO ANG
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