Through You

CHAPTER EIGHT - I wanted to explain

~Martin

Nakakagulat ba? Wala kayong magagawa, lasing ung bida.

"Hoy, 2 taon ako nawala, tapos ganito pa din kayo? Hindi pa din kayo?" Narinig kong sabi ni Kathy as I was about to open another bottle of beer.

"Alak ba yang nag sasalita, Kate? Kasi kung oo, wala akong planong makausap ang alak ngayon, iniinom dapat yan." Diniretso ko naman itong inumin saka tumabi kay Kylie.

"Nakakalimot ka ata, you broke my heart, nag eexpect naman ako na worth it ung pag kadurog ng puso ko sayo at pag uwi ko kayo na, ano to?" Kathy followed me and sat beside me. I just stared at Kylie, sleeping soundly.

"At bakit hindi ka lasing? Hindi ko alam na ganyan kababa ang alcohol tolerance ni Ky!" She asked me and reached for a pillow, stood up and let kylie lean into it.

"Lalaki ako, malamang matagal ako malasing." I dranked my beer again.

"Puro chika, bat ayaw mo sagutin ung tanong ko!" That made me turn my back against Kylie.

"Look, as much as I want to explain it to you, I can't. I still remember how you despised me after breaking up with you. Remember what you told me?"

I saw her expression changed but then she came back. "Kasi naman, I let you go kasi I wanted to give you a chance to be with her anong nang yari?"

"Well, aljur happened." I said, that bitter truth made me drank again my beer. I reached out for another.

"Hoy, tama na." Kathy tried to steal the beer from me but I was stronger. "Ky and Aj broke up 2 years ago, you had what, 6 months to lure her into you."

"Look, ano bang akala mo, Kylie is a prey I can force myself into? No, Ky is much more than that, she always made me think, and i thought she always made me be better." I said and turned my back against Kathy and stared at Kylie.

I held kylie's hair and sweep it off her face. "I always wanted to tell her everything, but as her friend, she always tell me she's not ready, I am not willing to risk everything she worked hard for. We know how mentally unstable she became when Aj broke her."

"The Kylie I am seeing today, is the kylie that I fell inlove even more. She's stronger than ever. I don't want to ruin that."

I looked at her and saw her crying, ok, I am speaking to alcohol disguised as a person.

"Nakakainis ka naman eh, bat ako di ka naman ganyan, nakakainis ka." I wiped her tears, "I'm sorry." Alam ko ilang beses ko na to sinabi sakanya pero di ko pa rin kasi maiwasan sabihin, I was Aljur to her. She's my Kylie.

Isa pa yon sa kinakatakot ko. Ayoko maging Aljur 2.0.

Pero on the bright side, naisip ko din minsan, that she became my growth, i didn't know how valuable something was until I saw it scattered before my eyes. What I can't accept is I had to badly hurt someone before I see that.

She wiped off her tears and went inside my room. "Matutulog na ako, bantayan mo yan." She pinpointed Kylie. While holding my beer to the one side of my hand, I held Kylie's face.

"I may be silently loving you, but that doesn't make my love any less." And for the 1st time, I had the strength to kiss her forehead.

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"Damn, Kylie wake up!" I said while patting her shoulder as she is peacefully sleeping in my couch.

Binuhat ko pa yan kagabi, ung ulo lang kasi nya nasa couch at nasa sahig katawan nya, naisip ko makakatulog ba sya ng maayos kaya binuhat ko sya.