Would your heart stop ( Jay x Matthew Big Mouth Jatthew Fanfiction )

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Matthews POV
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I had just woken up when I realised everyone had left the room. At least I thought until I felt something holding on to me. I turned my head around slightly see see that I was still in Jay's arms. I carefully escaped his grip. When I was free I just sat there staring into his beautiful eyes. I still couldn't believe that we both liked each other. Things really might be turning around for us. I laid down in front of Jay with my face nearly touching his. I smirked as I bit his bottom lip softly. All I could hear was a quiet moan escape his mouth. Jay suddenly shot up and scanned the room. "Morning sexy" I said whilst winking at him. "Do you think anyone saw us" he said panicking. "Relax, I'm pretty sure everyone is downstairs. Plus I really don't see why it's such a big deal" I said teasing him. He shook his head as he grabbed my collar pulling me closer. I felt his hot breath on my neck and he pressed his lips against mine. As he pulled away I basically melted into a puddle. Without another word we got started to get into our clothes for the day. I was sneakily checking out Jays abs as a deep voice come from behind me. "Hello my little queer" Maurice my hormone monster was stood behind me. Oh god please not now. "Looks like you made a little friend" he said smirking. "Maurice please not now. I can't screw things up you need to leave" I whispered whilst panic filled my body. "You need to calm down all the blood is going to rush from your head down into your-" Maurice paused. "Well hello there" he winked at me. Great, exactly what I needed. A boner. "Maybe your new friend will help you sort that out" Maurice said whilst making humping gestures. Jay looked over in my direction. "Are you ok?" He said looking concerned. "I'm perfectly fine" I said as I covered my boner up with my trousers. "I'm going to go pee ok um I'll be right back" I said whilst basically running off. "Ok we'll be quick 'peeing' people might think your doing something else" Jay whispered whilst smirking. He stared down at my boxers which made it obvious he knew. I could not deal with that right now I have another problem. After I sorted myself out me and Jay headed downstairs. Everyone was sat on the sofa watching a movie so we joined them. "Hey did you guys sleep alright" Jessie chanted whilst giggling. "Yea you both slept ok next to each other" Nick said bursting out laughing. "What's so funny" I asked genuinely confused. "You guys must of moved closer when you were asleep because when we all woke up you guys were cuddling" Andrew said sniggering. "We weren't cuddling. It must of happened by mistake or Matthew was trying to gay me all up" Jay yelled in an angry tone. I rolled my eyes. "Yes I was trying to 'gay you up'" I whispered with my head hung low. I felt tears in my eyes. Jay has said a lot worse to me but knowing that he's the one that cuddled! It hurt way more when he blamed me. The room went quiet as I started to stumble on my words. "I'm going to uh- go home. Thanks Andrew for letting me sleep round. Hope you guys enjoy the rest of your day" I said whilst picking up my bag. Jay looked at me concerned, I could tell he didn't mean to upset me but I was sick of him throwing me under the bus to protect himself. Finally after a long walk I arrived home. The second my head hit my pillow my phone went off. It was a text from an unknown number. 'Hey it's Jay. I'm sorry about what I said. We need to talk like properly talk. Meet me in the park at 8:00pm' it's weird because I didn't even realise he had a phone. Anyway I thought this would probably be beneficial so I texted him back 'yea sure. See you then' I wanted to get some sleep to try and keep my mind off of Jay but every time I closed my eyes I just saw us back in that cupboard making out. The whole day went by and I couldn't help but stare at the clock. I decided to shower and do my hair when it was finally 7:50pm. I quickly told my mum that I was going out, not that she even cared. As I approached the park I was greeted my a sad Jay sat under the slide. "Hey" he looked up at me and tapped the ground next to me to indicate he wanted me to sit. I smiled and sat next to him. We just stared at the ground for a few minutes until he gently grabbed my hands. "Matthew I really like you and I want to see how things could go between us. But-" Jay looked away. "But?" I questioned tilting my head. His eyes met mine again. "But I'm not even sure about my own sexuality. I mean I'm pretty sure I'm bi but I care too much about you for you to get caught up in that. I have so many emotions and I'm not sure how to feel. That's why I took everything out on you because you are open like I want to be. I'm sorry but I'm not ready just yet to come out." Jay looked down at his thumbs fidgeting. "Jay I really like you too. I know how you feel, sexuality can be scary and confusing but you have something I wish I had. Me. I can help you through all of this. As much as I would love for us to be able to be together in public, I don't mind if your not ready yet." I smiled softly as I caressed his cheek. "Really? So does that mean we have to leave all of this?" Jay looked at me with pain in his eyes. "Just because we aren't together in public doesn't mean we can't be in private" I said as I pinned him against the floor kissing him tightly. We rolled around under the slide making out for a while until it was time to finally go home. We said our goodbyes and Jay kissed me on the cheek before attempting some cool magicians exit. Which of course failed causing us both to giggle as we walked away from each other. What a night and although we have to be secret for now I'm glad we have sorted everything out. As I was walking home I got a text, probably Jay talking about something dumb and cute. 'Hey Matthew it's Aidan. We met the other day at a store and I thought you were cute. I was wondering if you wanted to go out some time?' I could not believe this. Aidan the super hot gay guy I met wanted to go out! All of this had to happen now after I was happy with Jay. I was conflicted between a secret relationship with Jay and a possible public relationship with Aidan. I mean it's a no brainer I had to choose Jay. Aidan was cute and all and we got along fine but I think I'm falling for Jay. If time is all he needs then I can wait.