Would your heart stop ( Jay x Matthew Big Mouth Jatthew Fanfiction )

The weekend long party part 4

Jays pov
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Every corner I turned he was there, I mean I feel like he should take the hint that I'm not ready to speak to him right now. When he wasn't looking I locked myself in Nicks toilet hoping for some peace and quiet. My eyes had a hard time adjusting to the bright light. Nick had set up some dim disco lights in the living room so the sudden change made squint. Once my eyes were back to normal I started to look in the mirror contemplating what my next best move was. Again I ended up doing the only thing I knew how to and that was drink. Nostalgia rushed into my weak body as I felt that familiar feeling of the bottle being pressed up against my lips. I started to down as much of the sticky brown substance as I could. I sat there for a minute or two just recollecting my thoughts before I stood up. Feeling that buzz kick into gear as all the blood rushes to my head.

After a few more slight encounters with my friends my bottle was now empty. My only choice was to now drink the cheap crappy beers that Nick had gotten Judd to buy for him. I cracked open to bottles and drank their entire contents. Still feeling unfulfilled I grabbed another as a hand grazed mine making me put it back down. Matthew looked at me with pleading eyes.

"Look I know you don't want to talk but we have to at some point, we can't be dating and never speak again." He said with desperation.

I have to admit that it wasn't my proudest moment now that I was completely wasted. My new found confidence consumed me. As I stepped back from Matthew still avoiding looking at him.

"Oh my god! Matthew look at yourself, just stop. I don't want to talk to you so leave me alone." I said slurring every single word.

He rolled his eyes at me realising I was once again drunk. Obviously he decided it wasn't worth it in that moment so he just picked up a beer and walked off. I was relieved that he was going to leave me alone but still a bit shaken up from the conflict.

"That looked rough, are you ok?" Aidan asked me.

"How do you always appear out of nowhere?" I started laughing hysterically.

"You are very drunk Jay aren't you." He started to laugh with me.

"Yes but don't tell Jessie or Matthew because they will worry." I started giggling.

"Hmm buddy I think they can tell already but I won't tell them if you don't tell my parents. Promise I won't tell your parents either." He shot me a small smirk. I was still laughing a lot more than I should of been.

"I'm not worried about my parents founding out I mean one left me and has went god knows where and the other drinks this stuff like it's oxygen." I said whilst still laughing. I wanted to stop but I felt like if I did I would start crying instead.

"Wow I'm so sorry you have to go through all of that Jay" He rubbed my shoulder in comfort.

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Matthews pov
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I can't believe that he's gotten completely drunk again. I mean you would think after last night he would avoid that. All I wanted to do was sort it all out I mean we have just gotten together officially as our first open relationship. We can't go messing that up after everything we have done to be together. Most importantly everything he has risked for us to be together. The thought of all of our special and sweet moments made me feel sick. So sick that I decided to take a page out of Jays book and drink away my feelings. I started off by finishing any drink I could find laying around. There was a lot so that had gotten me pretty drunk especially because I don't drink much. I decided that I wanted more so I started to make my way over to the kitchen table where all the beers were.