Mystify Love

Chapter 28

TRUTH

"It's so hard, living without you, Yusra. I'm in pain during those years but what can I do? I chose your dream and I have to pay for it."

"No," I whispered as the tears on my eyes continued to flow. "No... Not true... It's not true."

"Lahat ng sinabi ko pawang katotohanan lang, Yusra. I have no intention of lying to you." Sambit nito.

"No! It's not true!" Mas lalong lumakas ang pag-iyak ko.

"Alin ba ang hindi mo matanggap? Na may dahilan ako kung bakit kita iniwan? Totoong hindi kita pinagpalit! Dahil kahit sampung taon na, you're still the one can make me go crazy!"

"Tangina!"

Hinilamos ko ang kamay sa aking mukha.

"P-paano? Paano nagawa sa akin ni Mommy 'to?" I asked. "H-hindi ko matanggap that my Mom is behind all of these!"

"Yusra-

"No! My mother is the reason why I hated you! She's the reason why I get miserable thinking that you chose someone who is near you!" I shouted. "Tangina! Pinagmukha akong tanga! During those time na pwede niyong sabihin sa akin ang totoo! Na pwede niyang sabihin sa akin lahat pero kahit isa walang nagsalita!"

Patuloy ang pag-iyak ko. Nanghihina akong napaluhod mula sa aking kinapu-pwestuhan.

"Why?" Kinagat ko ang ibabang labi ko. "B-bakit tinago mo sa akin 'to sa loob ng sampung taon? I deserve to know the truth... you don't deserve all the hatred that I gave you, dapat ako ang kamuhian mo!"

"Hindi kita kayang kamuhian, Yusra." Agap nito. "Hindi ko kayang kamuhian ang taong mahal ko."

"Tanginang pagmamahal 'yan! Because of my mother you almost failed your exam! Natuloy nga ang pagdo-doktor ko pero muntik ko naman masira ang buhay mo!"

"It's all in the past now, habibti. Ang mahalaga ay okay na, pareho natin nakamit ang pangarap natin. You became a doctor and I became a lawyer, that's what matters the most."

"Hindi... my Mom should say sorry to you, I should say sorry to you too, Weston."

Pinunasan nito ang luha sa aking mukha. Bahagya siyang ngumiti habang ginagawa niya iyon.

"All that pain is worth it, Yusra. Makita lang kita lahat 'yon wala na sa akin."

Umiling-iling ako. "I can't... I need to talk to my Mom about this. Hindi ako mapapanatag hanggang hindi siya humihingi ng kapatawaran sa'yo. I blamed you for everything despite what you have done to me, your sacrifices just so I can pursue who I am today. You deserve all the sorry in this world, Weston."

"Habibti,"

"I'm sorry..." I utter. "I'm sorry for everything, since the day that we met each other, I condemn you without knowing the reason why you did that, why you need to leave me."

"Yusra, hindi rin tama ang pag-iwan ko sa'yo nang walang paalam. I was unlawful during that time, cause I thought that's the safest way to say goodbye to you but I was wrong, habibti. You question your worth, you are having a hard time trusting others because of what I did. You don't have to say sorry to me, I deserve all the loathe you throw."

"B-bakit ba kailangan umabot sa ganito? Nagmahal lang naman ako, bakit kailangan pa natin masaktan?"

"Maybe we are destined to fall apart so we can reach our dreams, Yusra." Sambit nito. "Look at you, you've become doctor on your own-

"But I lost you." Putol ko sasabihin nito.

"I'm still here, Yusra. Hindi naman ako nagpapahanap." Sagot niya sa akin. "Hindi kailanman magpapahanap sa'yo dahil kusa akong lalapit sa direksyon mo."