Letters to Chanyeol

Letter 04

Dear Chanyeol,

Remember the night when you called my name once and you even shortened it? It was the night before you said you love me.

We were in a video call. It was our first time to do this but you insisted it since I went to my province and you were being clingy. I could remember my heart beat so fast as you called my number. I even tried to fix my hair to look better.

At first, we talked about our favorite anime. We were both fanatics of that show. We could discuss it without feeling tired and we never ran out of things to say. We would start with the characters and eventually to the story itself.

You were so happy that you found someone who likes it as much as you do. We talked about our favorite scenes and favorite characters. I too, couldn't believe that someone like you would be addicted to an anime like that.

It felt great because we shared the same interests. There was no dull moments or dead airs. We just understood each other. Everything just felt easy.

Eventually when we were about to sleep you messaged me, "Baek, I can't sleep"

But I didn't have any energy left so I just nodded and slept. I don't usually sleep early but I guess we were just comfortable with each other that I instantly felt at home. That was when you said the magic words.

You were shy about it but you told me that you said it when I woke up the next day. Your face was so red that time.

"Did you hear me last night?" We just woke up and that was the first thing you told me. I looked at you with sleepy eyes and shrugged. You smiled and shaked your head.

"Forget it"

"No, tell me." I was curious because I felt that it was important. You won't open it up to me the next day if it didn't.

You looked at me with hesitation. I used my popular puppy dog eyes to convince you to tell me what it was and eventually, you gave in.

"I love you. I said I love you."

My eyes widen because I couldn't believe it. I was so happy even if I know that we were moving fast. It hasn't been a week and you already said those words. You told me before that you wouldn't easily jump into a relationship until you were sure, so when you told me your feelings, I knew everything was real.

I knew we were different because our connection was different. What we have was something I cannot explain. I don't usually believe in soul mates, but I think you were mine. In just a short span of time, you uncovered all my fears. You gave me a reason to believe in someone again. You opened my heart to all the possibilities.

That was why, I knew, we're meant to be. But I bet you didn't think of that, right? Everything was only in my head.