Letters to Chanyeol

Present Time

I woke up and saw an unfamiliar celling. My head and whole body suddenly hurt. Right, we didn't eat dinner but we head to his condo to have sex. I took a deep breath. I hate myself whenever I get this weak.

I turned to him and heard him snoring, just like old times. I took a deep breath again. Why am I so stupid? Why did I just let everything go the way he wanted it to be?

I stood up, grabbed my clothes, and head to the bathroom. I looked at my reflection in the mirror and I couldn't help but cry. I was so stupid. I wanted to hit myself but I knew that would be useless.

I took another deep breath. I am strong. I am a fighter. I will overcome this. I wore my clothes and without looking back at you, I left your place.

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"So, how was it?" Kyungsoo asked as I entered the office. He didn't bother looking at me but I guess since I was the only one not there yet, he was sure that the one who entered was me.

"Ahohoho. You're wearing the same clothes" Kai commented and pointed at me while Suho smirked.

I lightly smileed and head to my table. Kyungsoo rushed to me with a huge frown on his face, "I'm so disappointed in you."

I stopped fixing my things and I turned to him. This was the first time he looked at me like this. "Well you told me to do what I want, right?"

"Because I thought you'd be wiser!" This was also the first time he raised his voice at me. I know what I did was wrong but there was no reason for him to treat me this way.

"We both know I'm still inlove with him! Why are you so angry?" I stood up and faced him. I was not in the mood to be his little boy and just accept his harsh words.

"Because I love you!" He replied and his tears started to fall.

I paused. Suho and Kai were surprised as well. Kyungsoo looked away. "And I hate seeing you like this. You can date anyone you like, Baek. But not the one who left you like that."

"Kyung..." I tried to grab him but he moved away. He didn't even bother to look at me and just walked back to his seat. He got his bag and left the office. I could hear Kai and Suho mumble to each other while I couldn't move.

I suddenly remembered what Chanyeol told me last night. He was right. Kyungsoo does look at me differently.