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"It's been five years. I still love you, but you can't still love me back"
Kitang kita ko ang lungkot sa mga mata nya, ramdam na ramdam ko ang lungkot mula doon.
"Am I forgotten?" he asked weakly.
"You are not forgotten." tugon ko, patuloy sa pag agos ang luha ko.
"It's been five years, same feelings."
"and it's been five years, same lines. tch!" ako ang nag dugtong.
Natawa na man sya, at napatitig na man ako.
'It's been five years ago since the last time I saw you laughing' Sa isip ko iyon nasabi.
Natinag ako nang.."I miss that stares."
Hindi ako nakasagot.
Napapahiyang bumaling ang paningin ko sa paligid. At doon ko lang napagtanto na ang lugar kung saan kami nakaupo ay ang lugar kung saan nagtapos ang kami noon.
"Do you remember this place?"
"O-of course." naisagot ko Lang.
"I'm not really forgotten.." usal nito at napatitig uli ako.
At nang matapos syang tumawa ay agad kong iniiwas ang paningin ko.
"Naiinis ka pa rin ba sakin? Zairy?"
Zairy...
I missed to be called that.
"I don't know Samuel."
"I said.. I am Daremm."
"Daremm Selvario." aniya.
"Yeah.." I just said.
"I think I'm forgotten." he whispered in my ears.
Damn it!
"I said..You're not forgotten!" inis na sigaw ko.
Nagulat sya, ngunit hindi ko pinansin yon! "Don't insist that you are forgotten! Cause you. are. not. for.got. ten.!"
Ampota den to eh! Si Samuel ka na, hindi ka na si Daremm!
Inis akong tumayo at akma na sanang maglalakad papalayo ngunit...
HINAWAKAN NYA ANG KAMAY KO!!
"I'm sorry.." bumalik na naman yung emosyon nya na ang lungkot lungkot ng mata!
Dahan dahan kong hinawakan ang kamay nya at...
Inalis yon.
"I didn't stop nor chase you before, so I please you to do the same..."
"Let me go" I smiled but the pain is in it.
I smiled but the tears are forming in my eyes.
I smiled but hurt...
"Let's talk about the past.. I w-wanna clear things out." pigil nyang muli.
Naiinis ako sa loob loob ko munit nais ko ding madinig ang mga paliwanag nya. Gusto kong masagot ang mga tanong na akala ko hindi na masasagot...
I sighed and, "fine."
"I left you because my mom gave me to a foreign couple.." he started. I'm still listening..
"Nung umamin ako, iyon din ang araw kung kailan ako susunduin ng mag asawa. I didn't want to bid my goodbye, but I'm s-scared that you might think I left you without reas---" Hindi ko sya hinayaang matapos.
"You left me without a reason."
Nakita ko sa mga mata nya ang matinding lungkot, mas matindi kesa kanina. "I didn't know what to say that time but that's all true. I d-don't know how to explain a-anymore..." napapailing na sambit nya.
".. I want to stop walking away, I want to look at my back and walk near again to you. But... I stopped my self. My m-mom needs money."
"You should tell me, I can help you" ani ko. Umiling na man sya at.. umiyak sa mga palad nya na animo'y batang hindi nabigyan ng gatas.
He looks so weak right now.
"Aside from she needs money, she w-wants me to be out of her l-life."
And that line, makes me hug him. A tight hug, and gets more tighter...
"Gusto kitang balikan, pero wala na akong magagawa." he said, feel so weakly and hug me back.
We stayed like that for more that a minute, he cried silently in my shoulder. I feel the sadness, weakness, and the pain coming from him.
Why I can't help you that time?
Why you look so hopeless here in front of me?
"Sinikap kong abutin ang pangarap ko, mahirap.. kasi b-bukod sa sarili ko. Wala ng naniniwala sa akin" Maya mayang sabi nya habang nakatungo pa rin sa balikat ko.
"Don't say that, because Zairy, and Zairerin believes in you.." mahina at mahinahon kong usal ko na man.
"H-ha?"
"Your best friend before, it's Zairy. And the one in front of you, this is Zairerin." nakangiti ngunit sinsero kong paliwanag sa kanya.
Ramdam ko ang pag angat ng ulo nya, siguro ay nagulat.
I sighed...
"I changed, Samuel."
"Dar—"
"You also changed, my best friend before before was Daremm, and the guy I am hugging right now is Samuel." nakangiti pa ring paliwanag ko, hinaplos haplos ko pa ang likod nya. Mabawasan man lang ang sakit na nararamdaman nya.
"But call me Daremm, I am used to that." he faced me.
Nagkibit balikat na lang ako at ngumiti. "I am going, I hope you are fine."
"Why so fast?"
"I n-need to be with them in lunch time." pagsisinungaling ko.
"W-who's them?"
"Ah, yung sa b-bahay.. kasama ko sa bahay"
"Is that so? S-sige. I hope this won't be the last time we'll talk" nakikiusap ang tono nya.
I smiled a bit, "I think so this won't be."
"I gotta go, bye"
"G-good bye"
Mabilis ang naging mga naging hakbang ko patungo sa parking ng kotse ko, agad akong pumasok at nagpakawala ng malalim na buntong hininga.
But.. I can't really help with my emotions anymore.
I cried silently...
Kung nalaman ko lang lahat sa oras noon,
I'll do everything just to save you and stay with me...
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