millie's pov
it's been a week, i think. i don't know the date but i do know i've been in my room for days. you're probably wondering why i'm still here after i said i'll kill myself. well i don't want to die quickly, i want a slow and painful death and it's working.
everyday i would wake up, shove some pills down my throat and make a few cuts. i haven't eaten or showered in a while. all i've been doing is just laying on my bed, waiting for the night where i would fall asleep but instead go to heaven.
i know 'my mum' has put food in front of my room door everyday but i haven't left my bed in a long time. i also know 'finn' has came by everyday trying to get me out of here but he's not real, they're not real. the real them is in heaven, which is where i'm going.
"millie, if you want to eat, i placed some pancakes outside. just take your time, love you" i hear my mum say
i look down to my blood dripping arm and i lay back on my bed, closing my eyes until i grow unconscious.
i get waken up by a small knock on the door and i look over to the clock to see it was 5 hours later.
"hey mills, it's uh me finn. my day was kinda shitty today, but it was okay because i have a surprise for you. here" he slips some papers under the door and i tiredly look at it
i weakly went to grab it and climbed back onto my bed. it was the first time i got up from my bed in days.
"i know you think i'm not real but i still want you to read it" he says
i picked up the papers and put it in front of my face to read. they were song lyrics.
I found a love for me
Darling, just dive right in
And follow my lead
Well, I found a girl, beautiful and sweet
I never knew you were the someone waiting for me
'Cause we were just kids when we fell in love
Not knowing what it was
I will not give you up this time
Darling, just kiss me slow, your heart is all I own
And in your eyes, you're holding mine
Baby, I'm dancing in the dark with you between my arms
Barefoot on the grass, we're listenin' to our favorite song
When you said you looked a mess, I whispered underneath my breath
But you heard it, darling, you look perfect tonight
Well, I found a woman, stronger than anyone I know
She shares my dreams, I hope that someday I'll share her home
I found a love, to carry more than just my secrets
To carry love, to carry children of our own
We are still kids, but we're so in love
Fightin' against all odds
I know we'll be alright this time
Darling, just hold my hand
Be my girl, I'll be your man
I see my future in your eyes
Baby, I'm dancing in the dark, with you between my arms
Barefoot on the grass, listenin' to our favorite song
When I saw you in that dress, looking so beautiful
I don't deserve this, darling, you look perfect tonight
Oh, no, no
Mm
Baby, I'm dancing in the dark, with you between my arms
Barefoot on the grass, we're listenin' to our favorite song
I have faith in what I see
Now I know I have met an angel in person
And she looks perfect
No, I don't deserve this
You look perfect tonight
