♡ chapter 3 ♡

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millie's pov

i ran. i just ran. i didn't drive to school today so i just ran home. sobbing.

once i reached my house, i quickly unlocked my front door and slammed it shut loudly.

"millie hey how was-" i heard my mum say

i ignored her and ran upstairs to my room before she could finish her sentence and slammed my door shut quickly and loudly.

my body quickly dropped to the ground with my back against the door, sobbing even harder then i did before.

i slowly walked into my bathroom and grabbed a blade from the back of the cabinet and sat on the floor. i cut slide the blade across my wrist not even caring where anymore.

"why me?" i whisper

"why is my life so shitty?" i choke on a sob

"why can't i ever just be happy? why can't i just get buried 6 feet into the ground forever? why can't i just die!?" i sob

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finn's pov

fuck. i can't believe i did that do her.

i immediately ran after her not even caring that mr keery was calling after me.

"hey guys how was your-"

i ran right past him ignoring him and not caring at all.

"-lesson" he whispered with a sigh

i ran straight to my car and began to drive to millie's house.

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i arrived at her house and i quickly ran to her front door and knocked on it.

a few minutes later i see millie's mom open it and she gives me a small smile.

"hi um i'm finn is millie here? she um left her textbooks at school and i wanted to give it back to her." i lie

"oh yeah um she's in her room. first door on the right" she tells me

"thanks" i mumble, walking right pass her and up the stairs to millies room

i reached millies room and heard faint sobs through the door. i was about to open the door but i heard her talking to herself so i put my ear against the door to hear properly.

"why can't i just die?" i hear ask

"why can't the pain go away?" she says again

i quickly opened the door and saw her cutting her wrist between sentences and i ran straight to her and took the blade away from her.

"MILLIE! what are you doing?!" i ask loudly

"i- just leave me alone" she sobbed and tried to get her blade back but i stuck my hand high in the air so she couldn't reach it

she stood up and walked in the bathroom with blood dripping from her arms while the blood leaves a trail on the floor.

i heard clattering sounds from in there so i walked into the bathroom and saw her with a box of razor blades in her hand about to cut again.

i quickly ran over to her and slapped it away from her hand.

she slowly fell into my arms sobbing hard as i wrapped both arms around her, one rubbing her back to comfort her.

"shhh it's okay millie" i shush her

"it's okay" i rub her back, "you're okay"

i felt her nod slightly into my chest as her breathing began to even out and calmed down more.

"thanks" she mumbled

she stood up and was about to walk out of the room until i stopped her.

"wait" i called out

she stopped and turned around to looked back at me.

"you should patch those up" i said, pointing at her arms

she slowly looked down at her arm and nodded.

"wheres your first aid kit?" i ask

"back of the second cabinet" she tells me

i opened it and stuck my head to the back and saw 2 more boxes of blades.

why does she have so much? i wanted to ask her but at the same time i didn't want to push her so i just grabbed the first aid and closed the cabinet.

i signalled for her to reach her hand out so i can help her patch up and she slowly obeys.

she stuck her arm out and looked the other way, not daring to look at me.

i grabbed some alcohol and dabbed it on her cut as she winced in pain making me frown slightly.

i finished patching her up and put the first aid kit back in the cabinet where it belonged.

"im um gonna go now" i say

she nods and walks to her bed as i walk towards the bedroom door.

"wait finn-" she calls out, "i uh just wanted to say thank you for you know- today and all" she looks down

"yeah yeah of course. well um bye see you tomorrow" i wave as she nods slightly

"bye"

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a/n: hi sorry for this short chapter, i didn't want to add a whole another day because the chapter will be too long. i didn't bother to proofread this so i'm sorry if they're mistakes. anyways thank you for reading :)

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