The Havoc's Tamer [completed]

Chapter 40

DAMASCUS'S POV

"Son, please tama na yan. Isang linggong sunod sunod ka ng puro inom ng alak. Makakasama yan sayo." awat ni mom saakin ng akma kong tutunggain ang pang labing dalawa kong baso ng martini.

"Ang pag-iwan palang saakin ni Shanti mom, sobra na po ng nakasama saakin yun. Lalo pa't may kasama syang ibang lalaki. Ang mas malala pa, kaibigan ko mom. My fvcking friend!"

I'm holding on your rope
got me ten feet off the ground,
and im hearing what u say but I just can't make you sound,
you tell me that u need me then u go and cut me down,
but wait,

"Anak, hayaan mo na sila. Baka sila talaga ang para sa isa't isa. Lahat naman ng tao dumadaan sa mga katulad ng ganitong karanasan anak, may bukas pa."

"We already created our future together mom. We already planned where we'll be building our house. How many little Shantis and little Damascus we'll have-"

"Pero hindi lahat ng plano ay natutupad anak! Kadalasan ay nananatiling plano nalang. Katulad lang ng isang bahay, hindi makakatayo at titibay kung bahay lang sya at walang poste. Guguho ito kung walang pundasyon. Maging masaya nalang tayo para sakanila anak."

"I don't know what happiness means right now mom. Now that Shanti's in other man's arms and not mine. I feel lost again."

tell me that you're sorry didn't think I turn around.
and say,
It's too late to apologize,
It's too late.
It's too late to apologize,
It's too late. yeah.

"Son, do you know that you're hurting me now? Pakiramdam ko wala akong kwentang ina. Hindi ko ba naipaparamdam sayo na mahal ka namin?" umiiyak ng sabi ni mama.

"Sorry mom. It's just that, I really love her. And it fvcking hurts me to think that she love someone else now."

"You can not force people to stay in your life, son. Just be strong enough to walk away from what's hurting you. But you need to digest the pain son. You don't have to be like this. Face the pain. Face what's hurting you because sometimes, the only way to move forward is to see the things that was holding you back. You have to deal with them head on, kahit makakapagdala lang iyo ng panibagong sakit dahil kapag nasanay mo na ang sarili mo sakit na iyon anak, makakayanan mong malampasan iyon."

"Mom, may kulang po ba sakin? May mali po ba? Sana kung may problema saakin, sinabi nya sakin para naayos ko. Baka hanggang ngayon masaya at magkasama padin kami. hindi kona po alam kung magiging maayos pa po ako pagkatapos ng mga pangyayaring ito mom."

"You'll heal okay? Don't worry. It may take time but for sure you'll gonna be healed anak. Nandyan ang panginoon, at kami na tutulong sayo." niyakap ko lang ng mahigpit si mommy at umiyak sa kanyang mga balikat.

"Accept it son and move on. Pwede mo pa namang maranasan uli ang magmahal at mahalin. Magagawa mo pa din naman ang mga masasayang nagawa ninyong dalawa ni Shanti, anak. Sa ibang babae na makikilala mo."

Pero si Shanti lang po talaga mommy. Til death, she will be my love.

SHANTI's POV

"Kamusta ang isang buwan mo dyan sa Liverpool anak?" anak pa din ang tawag saakin nina Tita Shania at Tito Richard kahit nalaman ko ng hindi nila ako totoong anak.

Sina mommy Char at Daddy Aga naman ay dumalaw saakin dito last 2 weeks. Plano nga nila na ipatingin ako doon sa pinsan ni mommy na Doctor sa Birmingham. Ang mga kapatid ko naman ay nakaka-usap ko na din through skype.

"Ayos lang naman po ma. May mga pinapa-kain pong mga prutas saakin ang doctor, may gamot din po akong tine-take, at pinapa-exercise po nila ako 4 times a week."