Nefarious Love

Chapter 31

Chapter 31

Love
  
     
  
Gulong-gulo ako. I couldn't comprehend all the things he told me. Nang makaramdam ng kaunting lakas, I pushed him again. He felt so vulnerable that when I did, napaatras siya. It hurt me feeling him like that. Hindi ko na siya nagawang tignan at agad nang umalis.

Nasa gitna ako ng paglalakad at pagtakbo. My heart is pounding hard and fast. Paulit-ulit kong binabalikan lahat ng sinabi niya. Nguni't sa huli'y hindi pa rin ako makapaniwala. He tricked the Falcutilas to release millions for Upside Furnitures to break my engagement?! I just can't believe it!

Hindi ako puwedeng magkamali. I saw the sudden increase of FALCO's liabilities on one of the documents. Although their assets increased too because of Upside Furniture, hindi 'yon sapat. What the hell is happening? I thought Upside Furniture is doing well in the industry? Did they lose their rhythm again?

I then remembered Samuel's exact words. Did he knew this was going to happen? Pero tinuloy niya pa rin?

Fuck!

Wala ako sa sarili ng makauwi. Hinihingal pa ako dahil sa layo ng nilakad. Ngayon lang ako nakaramdam ng pagod. My thoughts is still a mess. I decided to take a quick bath to ease my mind a bit.

Inside my room, I sat on the mat as I dry my damped hair using a small towel that's hanging on my shoulders. I was staring blankly at the wooden wall when a realization hit me.

Samuel really brought the Navalez' down.

Mabilis na nangilid ang luha sa aking mga mata. Pati ang mga Falcutila na kumupkop at nagtiwala sa kaniya ay nagawa niyang lokohin.

A huge wave of guilt hit me hard. He ruined the lives of others, deceived the ones who trusted him... for me?

Hot tears slowly flowed down to my cheeks. Nagagalit ako sa sarili ko. Hindi ba't ito ang ayaw kong mangyari? This is the main reason why I asked him to stop back then and agreed to Liam's plan. I didn't want him to ruin himself for me. Pero sa huli, ako din ang nagtulak sa kaniya para sirain ang sarili niya.

Fuck! This is all my fault!

If I didn't tried to take advantage of his feelings for me from the start, this wouldn't have happened!

Nasapo ko ang aking noo. Iritado akong nagkamot ng ulo. Nagsisisi ako sa ginawa ko, pero mas nangingibabaw ang galit para sa sarili. I can't believe I doubted him that easily! I hated Daddy for always thinking ill on other people and making me think the same way. Pero gano'n din ako. I love Samuel, and no matter how much I try to stop myself, at the back of my mind I know, I doubted him too. Kaya gano'n nalang ako kadaling naniwala sa mga narinig at nakita, because I was already doubting him.

I did not went out of my room. The overflowing guilt and pain reigned on my system, making me feel bad. Halos 'di ko rin nagalaw ang pagkain na hinatid sa akin ni Nanay Teresa. Mas lalo akong na-guilty na maging ang mga taong kumupkop sa akin ay nabibigyan ko din ng problema.

Seeing my current state, Nanay Teresa told me to take a rest. Huwag na munang pumasok sa trabaho sa araw ng kinabukasan. I agreed. I don't think I can function well right now, magkakalat lang ako sa trabaho kung pipilitin kong pumasok.

I texted Tomas about it. Mabilis siyang pumayag sa kagustuhan kong mag-leave.

Kinabukasan, napagtanto kong tama ang naging desisyon ko. My head was aching badly when I woke up. Hindi pumalaot si Tatay Joel ngayong umaga dahil sa masamang panahon, siya ang naghatid kay Semi sa paaralan kaya bumalik nalang ako sa pagtulog upang maibsan ang nararamdamang sakit ng ulo.

Alas onse na nang gisingin ako ni Tatay Joel para kumain ng tanghalian. Hindi na masakit ang ulo ko kaya nakuha ko nang bumangon upang saluhan siya sa pagkain.