Nefarious Love

Chapter 6

Chapter 6

Disappointment
  
  
   
Dinala niya ako sa isang kiosk na may kalayuan sa ibang estudyante. Nilingon ko ang malapit na hallway mula dito. There are some Senior High students walking through it na napapalingon sa amin nguni't agad din iaalis ang tingin.

I heard Samuel cleared his throat. "Upo ka dito," marahan niyang sabi.

Bumaling ako sa kaniya. Nakalahad siya sa concrete bench sa tabi namin. I nodded and sit down on it. He remained standing so I looked up to him.

"Uh, do you want anything?"

Umiling ako. "No, I'm fine."

"Sorry for what happened earlier. I'll talk to them later."

"Huwag na," I said and looked down. "It was normal anyway. After what I did last time…"

He didn't respond. Nag-angat ako ng tingin sa kaniya. Nakapikit siya ng mariin at nang minulat ang mga ito, he looked elsewhere like he was trying to avoid my eyes.

"Still," may diin niyang sabi. "They didn't have to make you feel uncomfortable."

Bumagsak ang mga mata ko sa maliit na paper bag na hawak ng dalawa kong mga kamay. I smiled bitterly, remembering how Eliron walks away everytime I am around. He knew I like him. He doesn't like me but, his bestfriend does. It's natural how he can give way for him easily. Dahil sino nga ba ako? To him, maybe, I'm just one of the many girls tailing around him.

He inspired me back then when I was on the edge of losing hope in my life.

Pero ngayong nakikita ko ang harap-harapan niyang pagtanggi sa'kin. May kirot na dumaan sa aking dibdib. Eliron was just another one of those I wanted to have in my life but I can't.

For some reason, ngayon lang nag sink in sa akin ang pagtanggi niya sa akin noong nakaraang araw. Siguro dahil nandito ako sa UST kung saan niya ako tinanggihan. O, kaya nama'y, dahil sa pagtalikod niya kanina at ang halatang kawalan niya ng pakialam sa kantiyaw ng mga tao sa paligid.

Masikip man ang pakiramdam ng aking dibdib at tila nagbabara man ang lalamunan. I let out a deep breathe and gritted my teeth, not wanting to let this negative thoughts get the best of me.

Inangat ko ang tingin kay Samuel. Salubong ang kaniyang makakapal na kilay habang nakatitig sa akin. Concern is written all over his face with his lips slightly apart.

If only Eliron could look at me the same way Samuel does…

I crossed my arms and raised an eyebrow.

"What?"

Lumunok siya bago umiling. "Dito ka lang, bibili lang ako ng maiinom."

Bago ko pa makuhang tumanggi ay tumalikod na siya para pumunta kung saan upang gawin ang sinabi.

Nabitin ang pagtayo ko. My eyes stayed at his back until I lost sight of him.

Bumalik ako sa pagkakaupo at nguling yumuko. The bitterness faded but was replaced with something different, a feeling I'm not familiar with. Though one thing is for sure, it stings too.

I shifted my weight. The calm and quiet surroundings eased the short pain I felt earlier. Wala na ang mga dumadaang Senior High students, siguro'y nasa loob na ng kani-kanilang classrooms. I can hear the faint noise made by the professors lecturing and some voices of the students.

There were some college students from different departments walking from a distance. Laughing at each other while probably going to their next class for today.