Random Blabbings

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Tinanong kami ng prof namin kanina sa klase kung ano raw qualities ng paborito naming teacher. Natawa ako. Pang-high school tanungan ni Sir, e.

Akala ko pagagawin din kami ng essay na ang topic ay, “What I did during vacation” (tapos papalitan lang niya ngayong na “during quarantine”).

Na ang consistent ko lang naman na sagot dati ay, “sa bahay” pero syempre mas mahaba at mas mabulaklak kasi may word count.

However, since ako 'to, sumagot ako nang maramdamin na tinawan pa ako ng kapatid ko.

What did I answer? Authoritative, knowledgeable and caring. Habang nagfla-flashback sa utak ko yung legendary teacher ko at ang awesomeness niya.

So pano naging authoritative na caring yung paborito kong teacher? Tumatahimik kami sa footsteps niya pa lang sa hagdan at napapanganga sa advices niya. Walang sugarcoating. It's always like this: “Ito ang reality, ito ang alam ko na pwedeng makatulong sa inyo. Ngayon, bahala na kayo. Sana maging successful kayo.”

Ngayong gabi, I was on twitter, resting my mind from academics and having a good laugh from a bunch of memes and tweets when I came across a tweet saying, “A Tale of Two Dreamers” then showed a picture of two fb posts.

Yung nauna, successful na babae na pinursue ang gusto niya at hindi ang natapos niya. She encouraged people to go for their dreams and ignore people who'll laugh at their visions.

Yung pangalawa, a guy na successful din na laging sinasabi sa kaibigan niya na sundin ang pangarap niya but his friend told him one day that he can't because he has a family to feed and sustain. That to him, failing means living in in the streets and he can't risk to do that just because he wanted to follow his dreams. The guy ended his post saying that risks aren't as risky for those who can afford them.

Luck.

You don't get to choose a lot of things when you're born, and the consequences of your actions will remain hidden unless you made the decision.

It's actually funny because I used to believe that hardwork beats talent. So I worked. I worked hard. I beat myself for not achieving what I think I should be achieving.

But even my favorite group repeatedly says they're lucky. They worked hard, of course. But they acknowledge how immensely lucky they are for being put together, how they're all one decision away from a different life but by some stroke of luck, they all landed to where they are.

So they worked hard and used that to their advantage.

Back when I wrote Chase IT Down, I was pursuing my dreams. I was going against everything, exhausting all means, that includes myself, to get to where I wanted to be despite knowning that talent/passion/dreams won't get you rich or be stable enough to quit a job. It is one in a million. It is a risk.

My favorite teacher specifically told us that. Reality is harsher than what you think.

But I believe I could be that one in a million. It was a risk I am willing to take.

Actually, I don't even think it's a risk because back then, I don't think there are other ways/options. I only see that way and I only wanted to go that way.

It is one in a million. I believe I could be one in a million.

I could be. Really.

But I don't have enough resources. I don't have enough means to run like crazy and fall down several times on my way to the finish line.

I only have three chances.

And now, from where I am right now, it's actually nice that I still got to try. That I have the luxury to try twice before re-routing.

So sa haba ng dinadaldal ko ang gusto ko lang naman talagang sabihin, if you have the means and resources to go after your dreams like crazy, if you can fail for a hundred times and still manage to take one more risk, go and chase it down. Take the resources to your advantage. Ignore the people saying you can't do that. You can. You have enough support and I am here to add moral support as well.

You could be that one in a million. Be that one in a million.

However, if you're like me who can't fail for a hundred times, who has limited resources and can't afford to mess up, who has a family leaning onto them, who has a sibling to support or a family to sustain, breathe in and breathe out. Let's have a delicious cup of coffee because we have to stay awake to live and face reality.

Ito ang reality at ito lang ang magagawa ko na pwedeng makatulong.

To whatever endevour you choose to pursue, sana maging successful kayo.