A New Beginning

The Dream

“I was serious before. After all the relationships I have been in since high school, you are not even in the same species of guys I have dated.” I said. He kissed me again, but not as quick. I could feel the butterflies begin fluttering in my stomach, and the longer he kissed me the hotter my blood became. He pulled back and kissed my cheek and down my jaw to my ear.

“And I was serious before when I said I meant every word of the song,” he whispered. I could feel my skin heat up as I blushed. I buried my face in the crook of his neck and he chuckled. He put his hands on my cheeks and pulled my back to look at him, our faces nose to nose. “I love you. I know you may not be able to say it yet because of previous situations but I want you to know how I feel. I don’t want to hide it from you. I wasn’t sure that’s what this was, but I know now that it is,” he said smiling. I couldn’t breathe. Just looking at his eyes while he was talking I could tell he wasn’t lying. He kissed me again and this time I pulled back, looking at him. I took a deep breath.

“I love you too,” I said shakily, “I didn’t know what I was feeling. The day I left him and you opened the door here, the first thing I noticed was your eyes, there was just something almost magical in them. I pushed the thought away because I had just left him and I knew I shouldn’t be thinking about someone else so soon, I needed time to recover. Then you were so nice and sweet, especially about the whole pool thing. I think your smile is what sent me over the edge, though. Every time you smiled, I could feel myself falling harder, and I am rambling. Why don’t you tell me to shut up?” I looked down. He put his finger under my chin and lifted my face to his.

“Because you are expressing your feelings and sometimes people ramble when they do that. It’s completely normal. Sometimes your brain works faster than your mouth. Rambling is just you body’s was of trying to catch up with your brain. It’s not good to keep things bottled up,” he said before kissing me again. I put my hands in his hair and pulled him as close as I could to me. He wrapped his arms back around me. We stayed like that for a few minutes until we heard someone clearing their throat and turned to see Iris waiting impatiently behind us. I laughed.

“What? Why are you giving us that look?” I asked.

“Dinner is ready if you two can pull yourselves away from each other,” she said. We laughed and got off the couch. I was still a little unstable and I stumbled towards the doorway. Zayn noticed and slipped his arm around me, helping me keep my balance. We walked over to the table and sat beside each other. Iris made spaghetti. It was the quickest thing she could think of at the time to fix. We all sat there eating, talking, and laughing. It was a good night. I sat back watching everyone else and thinking. Niall and Iris were absolutely happy. Zayn and I were happy now. I was glad I had decided to leave Ryan finally. Zayn was right; if I hadn’t left when I did I would most likely be dead by now. Honestly, besides thinking that I was in love with him I couldn’t remember why I had stayed with him so long. Now I realize I wasn’t in love, that wasn’t love. I think I was just scared to be alone. I just sat there smiling and watching them talk and laugh. I could feel myself getting sleepy.

“Iris, thank you for cooking. Guys, it’s been fun, but I’m getting sleepy and don’t want to overdo it, so I think I am gonna head to bed,” I said as I stood up and slowly took my plate to the sink. Zayn stood up and put his plate in the sink and followed me into the living room.

“Hey,” he said getting my attention. “Don’t think you are taking those stairs by yourself.” I stopped at the bottom and waited for him. “I won’t make you let me carry you, but I am at least walking beside you in case you get weak” he said as he slipped his arm around my waist and began walking up the stairs with me. We got to the top and I looked at him.

“At least let me try to walk by myself. You can stay close in case I can’t, but I need to try,” I begged. He nodded and I took a few steps carefully. I did ok so I walked a little faster and kept walking towards my room. Suddenly I felt my knees becoming wobbly. I reached my arms out straight on either side. One hand got the wall and the other grabbed onto Zayn’s shirt. His head turned towards me before he reached out and grabbed me so I wouldn’t fall. I pulled him closer and wrapped my arms around his waist. I looked up at him smiling, “Thanks.”