Into You (COMPLETE)

Chapter 48

CHAPTER 48:

Emma's POV:

"His name was, well is, Ethan. He was seven years elder to me. Everyone loved him so much. He was always the favourite, always making jokes, fooling around, pranking everyone, smiling all the time, always got himself in trouble but somehow he always got out if it very easily. He had a way with people around him, always knew what to say, when to say and how to say it. My parents loved him, he was the funny one and he was the one who gave life to our little family. He had his opinions and stuck by them. He was neither artsy like me nor did he like reading books. He did read books but he did not have interest in them like I do. Once he read a book because I dared him to read it. He admitted to liking it too but reading just wasn't his thing. And then there was Emily, our next door neighbour. She was like a big sister to me. She taught me so much and we used to hang out a lot too. She loved Eth, and Eth loved her too. Like everybody she lived him for who we was l. Eth liked her but he also tortured her a little, made her mad. He liked getting her all ruled up for no reason." I say and take a break, just remembering our childhood.

"I used to try hanging out with them like a little annoying sister and they did play with me but I always felt out of place with them. Joey, one of my other cousins, I was really close with him and he enjoyed my company too. But Eth was my bestfriend, nobody could take his place. But with Emily, I didn't stand a chance. But I didn't hate it. I saw them look at each other and it reminded me of my mom and dad, they loved each other even though they were so young  one night he had showed up to room, drunk out of his head. He couldn't stand straight for one second and he kept saying that 'i won't understand because I am a kid' but I never understood what he meant" I snorted a little but kept talking, wanting to get it off my chest.

"I was ten and he was seventeen when it happened. There was a literary fest and a lot of my favourite writers were going to be there. I begged my parents to take me there. But Eth didn't want to go because he was supposed to meet Emily and he said it again ' I won't understand because  I am a kid'. I really wnated to go and it was annual thing so I couldn't wait for another year. My parents agreed reluctantly. Eth siad he was fine being home and he will ask Emily's driver to drop him at the restaurant later for our dinner together." I stop for a few seconds, take a huge breath of air, swallow hard and lowered my voice.

"We were at the restaurant waiting for him to arrive when we received a call, Emily and Ethan had an accident. Which I learnt after a few years, was a drink driver and the guy lost the control of his car, crashed into the car Eth was in. My brother always said that when he would get a car, he would ban all red lights and run through all of them. Anyways, after the crash, Eth was still conscious but Emily was being squished by metals. Eth managed to drag Emily away from the car and he went inside the car to get something more. But before he could get out, the car exploded. When the paramedic arrived ,the couldn't even make out the face. There were third degree burns and he died before he could even get to the hospital. I never got say goodbye to him. He died because of me, because I wanted to watch some literary festival. I should have just stayed home nad read a book or something. He should hav been the one who died, it should've been me. People lived him. They would've managed without me. It's unfair, he should be alive and I should be dead" I say as I sob harder. I know it should've bene me. Always me but never him. By this time, Jeremy is holding me closer.

"Don't say that. Don't ever say that you should be dead" Jeremy whispers but I ignore it. I know what the truth is.

"And you know what? Emily is never going to be happy because of me. She is never going to love someone as much as she loved Eth. She lost someone she loved because I wanted to go to the literary festival. She blames herself for this when clearly it should be who should be blamed. I haven't even seen her after the accident because her family moved away and didn't keep touch. Emily wanted a fresh start and she wouldn't be able to move on there. Emily and Ethan weren't supposed to be seperated, like ever. Everytime I remember her, all I can remember is my fault. People wouldn't have been so sad if it were me.." I trail off. Truth hurts.