danganronpa one shots (finished)

You can relax now (saiouma)

Request by: me
Angst/fluff
Warnings:cutting, forced and normal throwing up
Sensitive?-dont read
Despair AU
⚠️spoiler⚠️(a little bit of change)
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Kokichi pov

All of us were walking out of the elevator after Kaede's execution. It was horrible. Shuichi...he was hurt the most out of us all. I had to keep up my facade, but seeing Shuichi like that. It broke my heart, I have a crush on Shuichi from the first time I saw him.

I went to the storage to get a white board trying to find the mastermind. I wont lie, Kaede had a great lead with the mastermind idea. I started by sticking all of our classmates pictures on it. 'Now off to work'.

I was working for a while cause soon the nighttime announcement went away. I looked at the board again and only my beloved's picture had thrust wordy written under it. I smiled to myself and went to sleep.

-time skip by maki's scrunchy-

*BING BONG DING DONG RISE AND SHINE URSINE*

I heard a morning announcement. I stood up and got dressed ready to get some breakfast and annoy people.
I came to the dining hall and sat down waiting for my food annoying Kaito and Maki in the process. I realized that Shuichi didn't came for breakfast. Kaito pointed that out and we all agreed that maybe today he should have a day off cause of what happened yesterday.
Today was pretty normal, well apart that Shumai didn't came out of his room.
The nighttime soon came and I went to sleep.

-another time skip by Himiko's magiiiiiiiic-
-A week later-

Shuichi's pov

After the execution I didn't bother to come out It hurt to much. I'm so hungry but I deserve it. It's all my fault if I had just stopped her. If I had paid attention. Its all my fault. Why? Why me?!

Others tried to come in or get me out. I just stayed quiet sobbing softly on my bed. 'I'm the problem...me, me and my stupid self. If I...if I just'. I started clawing at the bed having a panic attack again. 'Please make it stop' all the memories replayed the dead body, screams, execution.

I was let out soon from the attack. But ran towards the bathroom throwing up. I've been throwing up from panic attack or on force. Thats the punishment for my actions. I need to suffer. When I finished I laid in front of the toilet a little longer.

Half of hour later I picked myself up into a sitting position. Forcing myself to gag and the soon I threw up again 'need. To. Punish. Myself.'

I started crying again laying on the bathroom floor. All around me was blood from all the cutting I did in the past week. 'Its better if I die' I grabbed a knife I brought here from the kitchen a long time ago. I started to cut.

'One'
'Two'
'Three'
'Four'...

'Thirty'

Soon I realized what I did 'no not again' I tried to stop but I can't. "Please someone help me" I whimpered barely above a whisper. I crawled over the bed laying on it. I soon felt wetness on my cheeks. I'm crying. 'Please someone help' I fell down on my bed crying and staining my sheets more.

Kokichi pov

Shumai didn't came out of his dorm for a week now. I was really worried about him. Kaito and everyone were trying to get him out. I didn't. I had my own plan that I made today morning when Shuichi again didn't show up. I sighed sadly going outside.