sunrise no sunshine | Buenvenidez Series #3 [ COMPLETED ]

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We were just silent the whole ride. I was not in the mood to talk and he doesn't look like he'll be talking anytime soon that's why we end up creating a dreadful silence.

Ni hindi ko siya binalingan. My eyes are just on the red lights from the cars lining up because of a heavy traffic in EDSA. It's a bad timing for me, personally. This congested road isn't helping my anxiety at all.

"Wala bang alternative route?" I break the silence.

I couldn't help it anymore. Kanina pa bumibigat ang paghinga ko. This happens to me frequently but it was bearable because Kuya Ramon will often search for alternative route. Kaso ngayon, hindi naman alam ni Cai.

"Do you want to go home that bad?"

I won't expect him to ask me why. From the tone of my voice, he'd probably assume that it was like that.

"Yeah.." I just uttered and closed my eyes to avoid what I am seeing right now.

I heard him sighed couple of times until I kinda felt him switch lanes and turned right.

"I don't know if this will be nearer but the waze suggested this." He explained.

My eyes are still closed. I can't talk nor think that much.

Hinayaan ko lang siyang magdrive at nanatili lang akong nakapikit. After a long silence, he turned on the stereo and a relaxing synth-pop song played.

"Tired from the practice?"

Hindi ko inasahan na babasagin niya lalo ang katahimikan dahil sa tanong niya. Well, if i'm in a good mood, i'd probably talk a lot.

"A bit.." I answered casually.

"Bakit ang tahimik mo?" He curiously asked.

Doon ako napamulat ng bahagya. Good thing, ang nakita ko ay daan, kaunti na lang ang sasakyan sa road na 'to. Saka ako bumaling sa kanya dahil sa tanong niya. So am I so obvious?

"Uh.. I don't know what to say.." I said the alibi.

Well, it's true. Wala naman talaga akong masabi. I just feel out of mood.. probably because of all the news circulating in the media now.

"But are you okay?"

No. I was not. I just learned how to calm myself when my fucking mind is acting like hell.

"Oo naman.." I tried to sound fine. Alam kong hindi niya tatanggapin ang sagot ko kaya binaling ko nalang sa iba ang topic. "Ikaw ba? Wala kayong celebration or afterparty for your project?" Tanong ko.

As much as I hate to hear anything about it, hindi ko naman pwedeng idisregard nalang ang katotohanan na isa 'to sa hinintay ni Cai.

This is about his dreams and not my insecurities. And to hell with that! Why would I even feel insecure, right? Ako ang kasama niya ngayon, doon palang, I shouldn't be bothered anymore.

"Meron but I left early.." he uttered.

"For me?" I gazed at him.

He gazed at me too and a small smile crept on his face before he nod.

"For you.."

I pouted and tried to hide my smile.

Oh, diba? Isang galaw niya lang sa akin, nalilimutan ko nang malungkot ako.

He's like a token to me, I'd function if he'll supply me with attention.. and I'm not gonna refuse that of course. Si Cai 'to, e!

"Why do you sound sweet like you did something wrong..." I jokingly said.