Beginner's Luck ▪︎ Dixie D'amelio/You

25. will you stay?

Since you've been commenting a lot, here's a chapter a little early than planned :) keep it up and there will be alot more early chapters xx have a good read

(Y/N)

When I saw Dixie kissing the goalkeeper, my heart sank, and when our eyes met, I quickly looked and walked away. I hadn't realized how hurt I actually felt by being away from her, of course I knew that it bothered me and it made me sad, but I hadn't felt it in my heart yet. And when I did, the shock made things almost blurry. Maybe she doesn't care after all.

I felt like leaving, and I was pretty ready to actually walk all the way to my apartment again, but I had the brilliant idea to look to my side one more time, and what I saw stopped me from leaving. Everything from there felt like a blur.

I saw Charli and Chase speaking loudly, none of them looked sober. I furrowed my eyebrows when I noticed Charli's sad expression, her eyes glassy as Chase yelled at her. That reminded me of my sister, so helpless in another country, and it made my chest ache for a different reason than it already was, I couldn't walk away from that. I swallowed the awful feeling that pressed against me and approached them.

"Hey, Charli, can I talk to you?" I called her, making her turn to me.

"We're in the middle of something." Chase said, his voice announcing the drinks he probably had.

"I didn't ask you." I hissed and looked back at Dixie's sister, who just nodded. I embraced her side and took her away from her.

"What's going on?" I asked near her ear, the music was too loud. She just looked at me as tears left her eyes.

"Hey! Don't do this, come here." I hugged her tighter as I took her up the stairs.

On the second floor, there were fewer people, Madison had been doing a great job making sure no one went up.

Opening up a door, I walked in a room with Charli, closing the door behind us.

"What's going on?" I asked, the girl was walking around the room and dropping all sorts of things.

"I think I just broke up with Chase, and he's leaving and maybe I should too and..." She kept talking and dropping things, making a lot of noise.

"Charli, calm down, you're making a mess." I pulled her by both arms, pulling her closer to me and away from things that could possibly break. She sighed and looked at me, her sad eyes burning me as I held her arms and pulled her closer.

"I've been so confused for so long." She sobbed.

"You don't have to always know what's going on, trust me, most things are out of your control." I smiled weakly and wiped some tears off her face with one hand.

As I went to take one hand out of her face, I felt her cold palm against the back of my hand, keeping me from doing it and pressing my hand to her cheek. I furrowed my eyebrows.

In the dark room, I could only see the shadow of her features, a weak streetlight entered the room's window and lit a side of her face, her eyes were still focused on mine, but, suddenly, she didn't look sad.

Almost unconsciously, I pulled her by the arm and our bodies touched completely, the only thing apart being our heads. My hand was still resting on her face and her own hand was still over it. Charli moved her head closer to mine, touching our foreheads, her eyes never leaving mine. I didn't know how the atmosphere had gone so tense, but I knew that suddenly I wanted something. And I did it. I pulled her face softly and connected our lips.

I felt Charli's body tense up when we touched, the hand that was on her arm slid down to her waist and I stroked the exposed skin softly, our lips moving slowly as her hand left mine and touched my neck instead. She relaxed under me and tilted her head, giving me more space, her hand stroking my scalp softly.

She pushed me and I felt something cold against my back as she started to kiss me harder, letting out shaky breaths on my lips and exploring my body with her hands. Charli pushed me again and I heard something clatter, stopping the kiss this time.

Before I could look at what we probably dropped, the door opened and light came in.

"What the......" Looking at the door, I saw Madison and Claudia, staring at us. I looked at Charli, her eyes as wide as mine.

"We'll.... go." She said, pulling me by the hand towards the door.

As Charli and me passed the door, Claudia pulled my arm and shot a confused look at me. I mouthed "I don't know" and let Charli pull me downstairs.

"Ok, I need a drink!" She said and started going to the kitchen, I pulled her closer by the hand.

"No, you need to go home." I said.

"I'm not drunk, (Y/N), I can make my own decisions." She complained, I rolled my eyes.

"You'll be too drunk after one more drink and you won't like the hangover, let's just go home, I'll take you." I pleaded.

"Dixie's still at the party and she won't let me drive." Charli crossed her arms.

"I'll walk you, it's not far, right?" I asked.

"It isn't, and maybe I need some sleep." She shrugged and took my hand, pulling me to the house's entrance.

"Hold on, I think we should let Dixie know."

"Oh, no, she'll be so mad if she finds out we kissed, we shouldn't let her know!" Charli exclaimed, I widened my eyes.

"I mean let her know you're going home." I said.

"Oh." I watched as her face went red.

"I'll just text her, let's go." I giggled, pulling out my phone and sending Dixie a quick text.

Walking by her side, I felt the cold breeze hit my face as the sounds from the party faded away.

"So we shouldn't tell Dixie about the kiss?" I broke the silence, making her look at me.

"I don't think we should, it would just be a mess." She shrugged.

"Why's that? I don't think she gives a crap." I commented, Charli laughed dryly.

"I think she does, even though she won't tell me, I know her. And that just makes me feel bad. Besides, it's the first time I kissed a girl and..."

"Wait, you'd never kissed a girl?" I interrupted her.

"No! And I have a boyfriend, and I think my sister likes you, and I think I like the kiss and maybe I...." I noticed her starting to get startled by all the information again.

"Charli, chill. We'll figure it out. I'm sorry I put you in an even more complicated situation. " I interrupted again, she sighed.

"Don't apologize, you didn't do it alone." Charli replied, looking down.

"Why did I kiss you though?" She muttered.

"Don't ask me." I raised an eyebrow.

"I don't mean it like that. You know I don't. But why do I feel the need to complicate situations?" She groaned.

"It's not your fault, people tend to want to kiss me." I said, making her chuckle.

We talked about other the things the rest of the way, Charli still looked pretty overwhelmed and I didn't want to put her mind on the problems our kiss probably created. Truth was, I didn't even know why I felt like kissing her.

"We're here." Charli sighed when we reached the porch of her house.

"Alright, have a good night th...." I stopped talking when Charli hugged me out of nowhere. I wrapped my arms around her, still confused.

"Will you stay?" She looked at me, still in my arms.

"Not a good idea." I chuckled nervously.

"It's just.... Dixie's gonna take long to come home and I hate sleeping alone when I'm confused." The smaller girl explained, letting me go.

"I'll stay until you sleep."