𝚍𝚊𝚢𝚍𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚖 • 𝚐𝚕𝚎𝚎

𝚇𝙸𝙸

It had been nearly a month since I started the medication. After I told Finn, he stopped talking to Puck...again. I understood it this time though. I mean, he did kind of have a reason too. Puck got his little sister pregnant. The one person he felt responsible to protect in the world right now. Of course, he didn't have to bother me about it. I was taking medication now. I couldn't sleep, I couldn't eat. The medication gave me constant headaches, but it's what I needed. And if it's what I needed, then maybe it was good.

The medication did a lot more for me now. I mean, over the past few weeks, Sam had become my best friend. We had a lot of inside jokes and it was a lot different for me now. I never had anyone know this much about me. I don't even think Finn knew this much about me. It was fine, though, really. I enjoyed having a friend like Sam. He was sweet. I saw how he cared for his younger siblings. When the electric would go out, us two would entertain them. Singing, laughing, telling jokes. He's gonna make a great dad someday, I know he is.

This past week had been strange with Sam. He had been looking at me strange. Like the way Puck looked at me before. It was weird. Nobody has ever looked at their best friend like that before. Their best friend's sister? Well, that's a different story. I don't think he noticed that I knew the way he was staring at me. It was weird. I didn't confront him about it or anything.

I was very good at hiding my emotions. Nobody knew I was in love with Sam, besides Finn and Scarlett. And they knew better than to tell anybody. I may be younger than them, and I may be tiny, but I can put them into the hospital with just one flick. So, they never told anybody.

We had won regionals, which was great. We were on our way to New York for nationals in a week. It was one of the most terrifying things I will ever have to go through in my entire life. To stand up on that stage and know that in order for us to win, I had to kill that double melody. Mr. Shue gave me and Sam a double melody. Amazing. Why did I get the melody all the time? I mean, I know I could sing pretty low for a girl, but still. There were guys for a reason. Of course, nobody cared.

It was fine, I didn't mind of course, but it still hurt. Here, the girls were getting all these great solos and harmonies to show off their voices, and I'm stuck swaying in the background with the boys. I'm sorry, when did I start producing testosterone? As far as I'm concerned, I still produce estrogen. Let me tell you something, in my senior year. I will be the new Rachel Berry.

Make no mistake about it.

**
[Sam's Point Of View]

I never planned on falling in love with my best friend.

Most people say it's normal for high schoolers to fall in love with their friends. I mean, with all the different hormones going through our bodies. That night—their first date at Breadstix—I was there, you know. I saw them. The person that I saw sitting there with Puck, that wasn't the girl I had been introduced to my first time in the choir room. The girl that was sitting there was just using him for something to get back at her brother with. She wasn't in love with him.

I saw her at Rachel's party. The way she was looking at Puck. She was drunk, no doubt. Still, she wasn't in love with him. I would see her smile or blush whenever she looked at me or I looked at her. She's my best friend. Blushing or smiling is normal for best friends to do to each other, right? I don't know, I've never had any best friends that were girls before. All my best friends at my old school had been guys. It was weird.

I used to be able to talk to my friends about anything. Now, I feel like I can't talk about...guy stuff with her. I mean, sure she says I can, but it's weird. I need more guy friends. I need people to talk to that understand what I'm going through. I can't talk about that with her. I can't ask her questions, see if she experienced it.

A.J was great and all, honestly. She was amazing. At everything she did. She was really pretty, too. She did look a little like Finn, but I guess that makes sense since that's her older brother. Whatever. I didn't even care at this point. It was time I admitted it to myself.

I was in love with A.J Hudson.