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"Lexie, when I tell you it was so awkward." I said to her as I walked into the living room from the kitchen. Lexie and Scarlett had come over the day after we had gotten back from Lima, bothering me about how it went. "I mean, first, at his parents house they asked about my dad. That was a little awkward considering he's been dead for nearly eighteen years. Then, at my mom's house, she asked about our sex life. It was so uncomfortable. Oh, and she mentioned to me that...night. That was the last time we ever had a dinner party at my house. Was that night." 

Lexie smirked a little, but Scarlett looked oblivious to the whole situation. "Wait, what night? Oh come on. I lived with you, Lexie. And Finn's my best friend. What is this night?" I sighed. Any thought of that night made my stomach turn. That was one of the wort nights of my entire life. "The night that Finn and Lexie weren't so...innocent anymore." 

Scarlett must've known what I was talking about because she burst into a fit of uncontrollable laughter. "Where is Finn? He was there when I got in the shower this morning and then when I got out...he was gone." 

"Oh...Sam said something about all of the boys going out together for a boys day or something. I don't know. Where's Santana?" 

"Oh. She had to work today. Yeah, we're a little behind on our payments for the apartment. She got a job and booked a commercial." I cocked my head to the side. "And you aren't doing anything?" She just looked at me. "I go to Julliard. That all by itself is a full time job. I mean, Lexie knows what I mean." 

They both nodded, then turned to look at me. "What about you? You don't have a job." I smirked. "I'm dating a male model. He brings in enough money to pay the rent for like six months. Don't come at me. Besides, my boyfriend didn't get kicked out of the army for shooting himself in the leg....my boyfriend didn't book a yeast infection commercial. So, really, who should be talking. I mean, Sam may be an idiot, but he's my idiot." 

Then, the conversation took a turn. We were talking about a whole bunch of normal things. Until, we weren't. Lexie's phone buzzed and she looked like she was going to throw up. "What's wrong?" 

"Finn texted me...told me that they were gonna be a little late. They're...getting tested." 

"Oh dear lord." Scarlett said, putting her head into her hands. I just sat there for a moment, not knowing what to do. "A.J? Are you okay? You look a little green.." 

"We both agreed that we would get tested before we tried for kids. And in the car back from my mom's, he was talking about Christmas and Christmas eve. Where we would go. Whose parent's we would see first. And a couple of weeks ago...he was talking about kids. Oh god." 

I stood up and began pacing back and forth. I wasn't ready for kids. I mean, if I really thought about it, I couldn't even take care of a Chia Pet, let alone another human. "A.J...calm down." Lexie said to me, not even bothering to stand up and calm me down. 

"Easy for you to say, Alexandra. You were just pregnant. I can't carry around another human for nine months. I'm not ready for that responsibility." Lexie and Scarlett looked at each other. "Is it really that big of a deal?" Scarlett asked me. I stopped and just stared at her. "Okay, you do not get any say in this. One, you are gay. Two, you're making Santana carry the baby. So, don't ask me if it's that big a deal." 

She looked down. "I don't know what to do. I mean, I love him, I do. But this isn't something I'm ready for. I was thinking when we were married. I mean, I even have names picked out. For a girl, it's either Caroline Jane or Isabella Sophia. For a boy, Finn Samuel." Lexie looked at me. "When we were little, I promised him I would name my son after him. Don't ask. It was a weird sibling thing we did. Believe it or not, we were a lot closer than we were before." 

"I'm not, I think it's a little sweet actually. I mean, your dad died when you were little and you don't want a constant reminder of him walking around, so you're going for the next best thing." 

I smiled. The door opened and the loudness of the boys walked in. "Oh...great." I mumbled under my breath. "Look whos home." 

"How was your day?" Finn asked Lexie as he walked over to take my spot on the couch. "Uneventful." I sighed. "Did you guys maybe wanna grab dinner tonight?" Finn asked everyone in the room. 

Scarlett looked around. "All of us? Like the eight of us. Nine, if you include Santana." He nodded. Everyone agreed, but I of course just sat in the chair that was in the corner, quieter than ever. "A.J, what do you say?" I looked up and just silently nodded. Lexie and Scarlett both knew what my problem was, but they didn't say anything. 

A few moments later, as we all prepared to get ready to leave, every time I was left alone in a room with Sam, I felt my stomach turn. That is why I was nearly never in a room alone with him. As we all left, Lexie and Finn had agreed to ride with me and Sam, along with Artie. 

The entire ride people were singing and talking. It wasn't quiet at all, which was nice, I guess. But I knew that the minute we stepped foot in that apartment when we were done, all hell was going to break loose.