Kasalukuyang nasa terrace kami dahil nga gustong makipag usap ni Deibson. Hindi ko alam kung bakit pero ang lakas lakas na ng pagtibok ng puso ko.
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"Ayos kana ba?"panimula niya
"Okay na ko. Sadyang nagulat lang ako sa biglang pag guhit ng kidlat kaya nagpanic ako agad."tugon ko.
"I see. So, you have an astraphobia pala. What do you usually do kapagka naririnig mo na ang mga yun?" Pag aalinlangan niyang tanong, umiwas din kasi siya ng tingin.
"Ah, of course, automatic na napapatakip na ko ng tenga ko and i usually run to my room and grab my blankets. It gives me so much fear kasi. I don't know why." panimula ko. "Eversince nung bata ako, I was really afraid of thunders and lightning. At mas lalo pa iyong lumala when i was 6 years old. Mommy was out to buy a medicine for me because i was sick that time. I was left at the house all alone, when i suddenly saw a lightning and after seeing it, I hear thunders and that's the time that i started to cry because i feel so scared. I don't know, I can't explain, but as you see, my reaction last time, that's usually my reaction everytime that it happens." naluluha kong sabi. "I'm really trying to get this out of me. But, it's just that, my fear eats me up everytime it came." malungkot kong wika.
"Ganun ba, sorry for that." paumanhin niya kaya naman pinahid ko ang luhang nagbadyang tumulo kanina.
"Ayos lang naman. Pasensya na din. Ganito lang kasi talaga ako kapagka napag uusapan ang kinakatakutan ko." saad ko.
"No, it's fine. "nakangiti niyang sabi. "But,aren't you afraid of the rain? I mean, when there's a rain, there's a lightning and thunder, right?" wika niya
"I'm not.." iiling iling kong sagot. "In fact, I do love the rain, because if there's a rain, I'll be able to see the rainbow that has different colors." nakangiti kong wika.
Namamangha naman siyang tumingin sakin. Sandali ko siyang pinagmasdan at kita ko ang pagkislap ng kanyang mga mata.
"So, didn't it comes to your mind that the thunder will comes out once there's a rain?" saad niya pa.
"Of course, it did. But I just focus on the brighter side. And also, it's just the thunder and lightning that i am afraid of. Coz you see, way back, when i experienced that kind of fear within me. I thought to myself that maybe that was my last day, i was overthinking that time, what if that lightning hit me? What if I die? I won't be able to see my mom again. But then, when my mom came, i feel so relieved." nakangiti kong saad at saka nagbalik tanaw sa nangyare nung oras na yun.
Flashback
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I was in my room because i was sick and my mom left me because she needs to buy a medicine for me. Suddenly, the rain pours hard and I just decided to sleep but when I heard a loud sound I open my eyes and look at my window, that's the time that i saw a lighting. I begun to panic because of that scenario, I even cried so hard because I remember the cartoon that I've watched on the television wherein there's a man who's walking on the street and suddenly hit by a lighting that cause him to die. I was so afraid, my knees were even shaking.
"Mommy, I'm scared...please go home." saad ko.
Because of the thinking that I was all alone, I continued to cry and started to overthink.
"I don't wanna die yet. I wanna see my mom. " saying these words as i cry.
I begun to pray and ask the Lord to protect me and call my mom for me, because that's what i remember that my mom said.
