It's Way Too High

Matter of Time

"Have you packed everything, yet?" I asked my son during our dinner.

"I think I got everything. Have you, dad?"

"Just need to pack some more paper for work and we're good to go next morning,"

"Thank God you mentioned it! I forgot to pack my journal,"

"Really? How so?"

"I did pack it honestly, but then I got a new idea for my book and I pulled it out again and now I think I left it in the living room,"

"We can't leave it here now, can we?"

"Definitely," He smiled up at me, causing a wide smile to spread on my face as well.

"Hey, dad?"

"Yeah?"

"Which city is it again that we're gonna move into?"

"It's Westwood. It was a cultural city, kinda smaller than this one, but I think you'll manage better over there. I'm sorry that we have to move a lot,"

"No, it's fine. We only move this time, the rest was just trips and honestly, I can't be more grateful. I mean, I'm sure that not all 10 years old got the chance to visit at least 10 countries in a year,"

"I just feel like my job kinda ruin your daily things, you know,"

"Nah, dad. You know I love travelling just as much as I love you, we're fine." Keegan said, smiling reassuringly at me.

Indeed he loves travelling. And it was also true that not all 10 years old got the chance to visit at least 10 countries in a year and as much as he assured me, I still feel like sometimes my job is a bit chaotic for him.

I think that's just the perks and drawback from being a CEO. Sure the money that comes with that position is extremely great and way more than enough to support the two of us, but sometimes (or most of the times honestly) I just have to travel a lot with lots and lots of meeting all over the world. And of course, I wouldn't leave my son alone.

Although he wasn't exactly my blood, I've come so attached to him that it feels like he was my own. And to make matter even real, as he grew up he looks more and more just like me. Unruly sandy blonde hair, dimples, and giggles. The only different is probably our eyes and chin. He got a normal chin while I got the peach-like one and my eyes are the hazel kind while his were blue, like sky kind of blue.

But aside from that, we look like an actual daddy and son.

I got him when he was 2 at the moment. I was visiting an orphanage to donate some of my yearly income and then a young boy was running to me and latching onto my legs. He was playing with another toddler and he used me as his some kind of shield. And right there and then, I just knew I had to take him.

He doesn't have a middle nor last name, so I gave him both. And there we go, Keegan Rhea Irwin.

When I get him, he was very well behaved which surprised me in more way than one. He didn't throw tantrum 24/7 like most toddlers did, he didn't litter his toys all over the place, and he likes to share with people.

As he grew up, he turns out to be a fast learner, a great listener and also an overall amazing son. Aside from his smartness, he was also a great boy with a great heart. He was kinda awkward if you didn't know him, but once you know him, he's gonna be your best bud.

And to say I was kinda proud of myself for raising him in a great way it was an understatement, right? At least I raised him much better than when my parents raised me, because I basically grew up with myself, not with them.

He knew he got the wealth, he knew he got the brain as well, but he was nothing but a down-to-earth boy and I couldn't be happier to have him as my son. He was also really close with me. He always opened up about everything and nothing in general and I did the same too. We just bonded closer and closer by each day and that's what makes us, well us.

I was afraid that my job would affect his life and the way he grow up, but turns out, he loves it and grow up just fine (if not amazingly). He said it himself that my job gave him the opportunity to learn about things he can't learn if he- we, only stayed in one place, he said that it also gave me chances to meet tons of people and examine their culture and stuff, and when it was supposed to be the dad reassuring the child but when it comes to us, it was usually the other way around.

I raised him to be an open-minded person, to accept everyone's preference no matter what as long as it was harmless and not bad. And it wasn't that hard when he was naturally a great listener with a great heart.

"Dad? Dad, you okay?"

"Uh?"

"You've been looking at me for centuries with a creepy smile on your face,"

"Oh? Nothing, I'm just having a moment,"

"What kind of moment?"

"I'm appreciating your existence and how lucky I was to have you in my life,"

"Ew, dad, cheezzz"

"I'm just being honest. Shut up, you" I playfully scowled him causing him to giggled loudly.

"You go right to bed. I'll clean this up,"

"Okay! Thanks, dad"

See, I told you I'll be just fine on my own.

Though I could still feel my heart aching for a lover, I think I'll manage just alright for now. Perhaps it was just a matter of time. Or maybe it was just meant to be Keegan and me only. I never know, but whatever it is, I guess it's for the best.

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⚠️ I M P O R T A N T ⚠️
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I guess my little brother just
broke my laptop 😶 I can't turn it on, and when it did turn on, it goes
dead again 😶

Idk wtf did he does to my baby,
but if it's broken, that could only mean one thing :

I can't write.

Istg I truly don't want to, but I can't write on my phone. This slim metal thingy (my phone) is annoying as fuck and I keep making typos which make me uncomfy as fuck 🙄

So, let's pray together for my laptop well-being so it will be fine again ASAP bcs idk about you, but I don't wanna stop writing 😔

This is my only escape
😭😭

Ily guys, I'll update you about my laptop asap xx