It's Way Too High

Sweet Creature(s)

"They seem to get along," Mrs Edwards said, coming out of nowhere.

"Uh? Oh, yeah, they do," what a dumb answer, sighhh~

"You seem to like them too, bonding with each other I mean."

"Eh? I- I do?"

"It's kind of obvious. Your face says it all,"

"O-oh..?" Am I really that easy to ready?

"Why? You wanna adopt them too? Because quite frankly, if anyone wants to adopt them, as a pair I mean, you're the best candidate in my belief. I know you could support them mentally and financially. I know you're more than happy and willing to help Eu with her delay. And most importantly, I know you would treat them just like they're your own. Just like how they deserve it."

"I... yeah... but the thing is..."

"Is this about that boyfriend of yours? He seems more than okay with Keegan," Sigh, I forgot that everyone knows about my private life because of that stupid paparazzi now.

"He's uh... we're in a... kind of break right now and he's uh... he's not here with me,"

"Oh? Is it because of his job?"

"Kind of, I told him to stay there because that's his hometown and that school was his dream place to teach at because his mum used to be a teacher there as well and I just thought that... it was for the best for us? I don't even know anymore. Maybe I was just being dumb and irrational, but I can't be that selfish and drag him with me everywhere I go, now can I?"

Why the fuck I blurt it out to her like it was nothing? But eh, it feels nice to just let it out to someone who was completely obvious to the whole situation. Kinda feels like talking to a therapist, I guess.

"There's nothing wrong with being a little selfish, you know. Though I do understand your reasoning, but you're just torturing yourself now. I'm sure you realise how pained he was by this decision of yours as well, don't you?"

"I... yeah... I do,"

"See! It's not the best choice if it was just torturing you two,"

"But he has so much ahead of him! I can't take that away,"

"You're not taking anything away from him, Ashton. In fact, you're just opening a new door of thousand possibilities to him. Who knows if what he was looking for was actually here, in San Francisco and with you guys? You might never know that."

"You can't be so certain of that..."

"I'm not, and neither can you. You seem like making him staying there is for the best, therefore you were so certain that it was the most suit decision for you two. All I'm saying is Ashton, when it comes to feeling and relationship, just stop thinking too much. Let yourself feel because after all, that's what relationship and emotions are for; to feel, not think. I'm not saying you should be reckless or something for not thinking though. I'm just saying that don't do it too much or too often, I'm sure you understand what I mean,"

"I..."

"I'm sorry for bringing it up, but it seems like it was bothering you. I'm just an old lady, all I could do was listening and giving advice based on my mistakes and experience, feel free to open up to me when you feel like it,"

"Err... thank you, I don't think it was that obvious, but seems like it was,"

"It wasn't, I'm just really observant and I've known you for years now, it's just easy for me to pick it up," I flashed the old lady a small smile, grateful for her advice and understatement to not push it furthermore.