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What a Catch, Donnie ~ Yorkcali

Tw: attempted suicide

I got troubled thoughts
And the self-esteem to match
What a catch, what a catch
Whoa

California stands in front of the bathroom mirror. "I can't can't take it anymore," He whispers. California opens the medicine cabinet. He pulls out his new bottle of Benzodiazepines and downs the whole bottle.

You'll never catch us
So just let me be
Said I'll be fine
'Till the hospital or American Embassy
Miss Flack said I still want you back
Yeah, Miss Flack said I still want you back

California collapses on the floor, he's unconscious. New York hears the thud and knocks on the door. "Baby, are you okay?" New asks but gets not response. "Baby? Cali? California?" He starts to get worried, he bangs on the door, "Cali, baby answer me, please." New York manages to pick the lock and open the door. "Baby!"

I got troubled thoughts
And the self-esteem to match
What a catch, what a catch
And all I can think of
Is the way I'm the one
Who charmed the one
Who gave up on you
Who gave up on you

New York shakes California, "Wake up!" He screams. "Baby, wake up, please! Don't leave me!" He pulls California closer to his chest, he can still feel his heart beat. "Wake up, California! I love you, please come back." Tears fall down New York's face, he starts shaking and hyperventilating.

They say the captain
Goes down with the ship
So, when the world ends
Will God go down with it?
Miss Flack said I still want you back
Yeah, Miss Flack said I still want you back

Massachusetts, DC, Florida, Louie, and Georgia come running down the hallway when the hear the yelling.

"What's wron-?" Massachusetts stops when he sees California's limp body.

I got troubled thoughts
And the self-esteem to match
What a catch, what a catch
And all I can think of
Is the way I'm the one
Who charmed the one
Who gave up on you
Who gave up on you

DC calls 911, within minutes an ambulance was there. They carried California away. New York calmed down enough to ride in the ambulance with him. Mass and DC following behind the ambulance.

What a catch
What a catch
What a catch
What a catch

New York hold Cali's hand, he's still shaking and crying. They get to the hospital, the paramedics carrying California into the building. New York behind them. They get California on a hospital bed and the nurses pushes the bed.

I will never end up like him
Behind my back, I already am
Keep a calendar
This way you will always know

"You're going to have to wait out here." One of the nurses say before pushing the bed into the room.

"No! I want to be with him!" New York yells, he's scared, "Please, let me!" He tries to get to the door but Massachusetts grabs him from behind, restraining him.

I got troubled thoughts
And the self-esteem to match
What a catch, what a catch
And all I can think of
Is the way I'm the one
Who charmed the one
Who gave up on you
Who gave up on you

"New York, please calm down a little bit." Mass says softly.

New York tries to pull against him but his older brother is stronger than him. New York relaxes, Mass lets go of New York. York is shaking and starts hyperventilating again. He collapses into his older brother's arms, crying into his shoulder.

Massachusetts rubs his little brother's back, "It's gonna be alright, okay. It's gonna be okay."

Where is your boy tonight?
I hope he is a gentleman
Maybe he won't find out what I know
You were the last good thing

About an hour later the door opens, the nurses leave the room, one of them walks towards, New York. "You can see him now."

We're going down, down in an earlier round
And sugar, we're goin' down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded God complex, cock it and pull it

New York jumps up and runs to the room. California us still unconscious, New York pulls a chair up to the side of the bed. He grabs Cali's hand, "Please wake up, baby." He rests his head on Cali's hand.

Ten minutes later New York feels someone touch the top of New York's head, he looks up to see California awake and looking at him.

"Baby, you're okay!" New York exclaims.

Dance, dance, we're falling apart to halftime
Dance, dance, and these are the lives you'd love to lead
Dance, this is the way they'd love
If they knew how misery loved me

"Why did you save me?" California asks, he seems mad.

"Because I love you." New York responds.

"I didn't want to be saved."

This ain't a scene, it's a goddamn arms race
This ain't a scene, it's a goddamn arms race

"Baby, don't say that."

"I didn't, you should've let me die."

"No, I could never, I love you too much. I can't live without you, California. You mean so much to me."

One night and one more time
Thanks for the memories
Even though they weren't so great
He tastes like you, only sweeter
Growing up, growing up

"I'm not important to anyone else."

"Maybe, but to me, you're everything. And if you're not here then I don't want to be here either. You don't know how much of an impact you have on my life."

I got troubled thoughts
And the self-esteem to match
What a catch, what a catch

"I love you, promise me you'll never do something like this again, please."

"I promise."