Desperado

part 73

a month later

joeys pov

i think i've finally moved on.

my sister has been helping me lately, she said i should take anything that reminds me of elena and burn it... i couldn't do that though

instead i put everything in a box and hidden in my garage. carter and the rest of them left back to california but for me, i'm staying in new york

the kids like it here and have started going to school, jay is addicted to his phone now and i hope he's texting girls because with the looks he got from me he should be pulling a lot

of course it's hard to believe that the women i loved is dead now but i can't be on the couch all day and sob over it. i have my daughter to take care of and she needs me right now

jay is on his own, i already taught him everything he needs.

i told michael that i am officially out. i no longer want to do anything that can put my kids at risk, they are all i have left and without them i would be alone

soph has asked me to see her moms grave but unfortunately we didn't have a funeral for her

it was too hard for me and no one could find her body in the building... they say she was burnt into ashes

i shake my head to get the thought out of my head. it's hard waking up without her next to me but i've managed to pull through

soph sleeps with me now, we brush our teeth together in the mornings and talk about the guy she likes when eating breakfast

then i take them to school and have lexi pick them up. i've managed to pull through and be a better person to these kids

leo and lexi moved in my guest house in our backyard so they've constantly been over as well. jeremiah and jay always together.

i wish soph had someone to be with, it gets hard playing with her. i don't know how to paint nails or dress up, i only own a shirt and a pair of pants, nothing else

"psh, what a joke" leo shakes his head, his eyes on the tv

we were watching greys anatomy only because lexi was forcing us because its her favorite show. she also said it's very useful and can teach us a couple tips

lexi use to be the nurse of the group, helped us with wounds but now it's like she just forgot. i can't even remember the last time she helped one of us with a wound or even a cut

"izzie can get it" he stands from the couch, turning the tv off and looking at me, "you look drained as fuck"

"i'm tired" i tell him

"let's go get a drink, when was the last time you got drunk?" he ask

"i don't know? a year ago maybe" i shrug my shoulders

"there is a bar on mulberry street, the girls there are hot"

"aren't you with lexi?" i furrow my brows

"i'm talking about you, you need to get drunk find a girl and fuck her in the bathroom or even better... in the middle of the bar" his eyes widen

"i'm not fucking anyone"

leo grabs my arm pulling me off the couch, "we're getting drunk, and i'm getting you laid tonight"

"but that means i have to go take a shower then get dressed, i'm too lazy for that. plus i don't have condoms" i try coming up with excuses

"one, you look fine and second..." he pulls out a condom from his back pocket, "i'm always prepared"

"it's only 9pm though, let's go around 11?" i suggest