Desperado

part 46

Getting comments saying how they'll stop reading because it's not going there way makes me so upset. Just stop reading if it makes you so upset!

joeys pov

next day

i sit down next to elena and hold her hand with my head down. she's fallen asleep again and hasn't woken up in the last 4 hours

after i convinced them that i won't hurt any of them they let me see her, only me

a nurse walks in the room, she was about elenas height and had her hair tied up

she looks at me and smiles, "we got the results back. she's pregnant"

my heart drops, "how long?"

she looks down at her clipboard, "one month"

i pull my hand away from elenas and sigh

i don't know how to react to this. i know lexi told me but it was still a maybe, but she's actually pregnant

this is exactly what ethan wanted

the nurse leaves the room and closes the door on her way out. elenas eyes start to flutter open and she smiles when she sees me

"joey" she whispers

"hey"

she fix's her position on the bed, "i'm so glad you're here"

i sit down on the bed next to her and tuck a piece of her hair behind her ear, "i need to tell you something"

she nods

"ethan is a horrible horrible guy. i know he's the only person you remember right now but he's dangerous-"

she interrupts me, "but i love him"

my heart stops when the words fall out her mouth. there's no anger growing in me, just sadness

my heart slowing starts to race, her words replay in my head. but i tell myself that she doesn't

she just thinks she does but she doesn't. she loves me even if she doesn't know it yet

"no you don't" i hold her face in my hands

"but i do joey"

"you just think you do but you don't. you can't remember right now" i look away from her

"i'm sorry" she says, "i want to remember you. i do joey, i'm trying really hard"

i know she's trying and i love her for that. i look at her and her eyes soften when she sees my tears

"don't cry" she frowns

every time i look at her i see my same old princess but she just sees me as, joey. someone she doesn't know at all

she wipes my tears, "please joey"

this is all my fault. this is all my fucking fault and i have no idea how to fix it

"i hate seeing you like this, i'm still yours" she says to make me feel better

"am i though? because you seem to only care about ethan" i say under my breath and she bites her bottom lip

"you cant blame me for that"

she's right, i can't blame her for it because it's simply not her fault