Desperado

part 24

"no, it can't be true"

"it has to be elena. he lured you to giovanni" joey scoffs

"no. this is ethan we're talking about, he would never turn his back against us, he has no reason too"

"he loved you for years elena and you left him right away. he has so many reasons to go against our back" joey says

"no, just no. i'm not going to believe it. ethans been your best friend since you guys were kids. he took care of sophia and jay, he was always there for us" i don't want to believe it

"he's apart of gabes team elena. he isn't one of us anymore"

i shake my head, "no joey. ethan would never do that, i know him"

"and so do i. i've known him since i was 10 years old elena. i don't want to believe this either but it's all making sense"

"i don't know joey. this is only one thing he's did that proves he's with them but don't you think he would've already turned me in?"

"you're right-"

"this is only one joey. i feel like you're only finding a reason to hate him" i frown

"i have so many reasons to hate him elena. you know i would kill him right now if you let me. do you know how frustrated i am right now! they had you elena" he stops to take a deep breath

"they almost took you baby" he whispers

i look down at the floor, "i don't want to think ethan is a bad guy but he's been there for me through out all this. i don't think he could be capable of something like this"

he looks up at me and his eyes are glossy, "i cant lose you elena"

"don't say that joey"

"i mean it elena. i cant lose you, you make me so happy even when you hate me" he stands in front of me

"i love you elena"

"i love you too joey" i wipe my tear and he pulls me into a hug

i haven't been this close to him in so long. i missed this feeling, feeling of relief. he makes everything so much better

"i know you still have some things to think about but i know you always chose the right decision" he pulls out the hug

i don't say anything and stare at him

"i should get going. talk to carter and leo and see what they're doing"

"okay" i press my lips together

he walks out the bathroom and i follow behind him. i hear the front door close and that's when i look at ethan who's out of his bloody clothes and into a white shirt and jeans

"hey, i'm so sorry elena i had no ide-"

"it's fine ethan" i interrupt him, i don't really want to talk to him right now

i go into my room and take off my dress and change into something different

today just felt like a really really long day. it's 7am and i don't feel like sleeping

i change into some shorts keeping my leg with the cut visible and a red t-shirt

i walk back downstairs and start to make myself food while ethan stares at me, i need to take a shower, i feel gross

"elena talk to me" ethan begs

i ignore him and look at my pancakes. what if joey is right? is ethan really apart of gabes team?