Desperado

part 60

elenas pov

the ringing in my ear doesn't stop. i just watched my best friend die right in front of me. and i didn't get to say goodbye

my heart is in so much pain. my mind goes back to jeremy and everything he's done for me. jeremy was the only person who wanted me to be comfortable when i first put in all of this

he made me food, made me laugh, took me out for drives, i would spend nights in his room because i was scared and he let me. he was also the only one who remembered my birthday

"hey!" jeremy laughs

"you can't do that!" i snicker

"why not? that's how the game works, you lose and have to finish this" he holds up a drink for me, mixed with chocolate, ketchup, water, milk, and radish

i hated playing this game, he was too good at it

"fine" i take it from his hand, holding my breath and took 2 gulps before slamming the cup on the table and running to the sink

a smile forms on my face keeping me calm. i miss him so much, it's been 14 years... 14 years since i last saw him, my best friend

the ringing noise disappears and suddenly the beating of my heart mixed with giovannis footsteps echos in my mind

he stands in front of me, hands on my shoulder. his lips keep moving but i don't hear a thing, my head is still on the floor. i feel drained, there's nothing left in me anymore to fight him

i've given up

"he loves you elena" jeremy says sitting down next to me in the backyard

"then why does he keep making me sleep outside" i huff

jeremy laughs, "because it's funny"

"it's not funny when i'm freezing" i say, i hated sleeping outside

"he does it to teach you a lesson. he cares about you elle, something about him has changed"

i keep my eyes on the pool, the water moving is mesmerizing

"he's cruel" i breathe

"not when you get to know him"

i look at jeremy and he has his eyes on the pool as well. his brown eyes sparkled and his black curly hair was covering most of his forehead, one strand of curl falling in his eyes

"right elena?" he looks at me with his pretty brown eyes

i feel like my mouth is shut. i wanna agree with him but don't know what to believe he's the only person i trust

"right elena?" he repeats and i nod

"elena" he says again

"elena"

"elle"

and like that he's gone

and i'm back to giovannis face in front of me, i pull my head up and look at him, "you're disgusting" i manage to say

"she's alive!" he takes a step back and claps his hands, "thought you almost died"

it's not like you aren't going to kill me anyway, at this point, it's all i want

"we're under attack" ryan says

giovanni look at ryan, "by?"