Desperado

part 36

he stops the car at madison's house, "are you coming in?" i ask him

"no, if you need help i'll come"

"okay" i say

the whole car ride was silent after the phone call with geo. why won't he tell me? out of all of them i would expect joey to tell me

i get out his car and make my way to madison's door. i brought the keys with me and i open the door to see madison on the couch moaning

"oh my gosh!" i cover my eyes

"duck!" i hear her say

i close the front door hoping joey didn't see what i just did

"what are you doing here?" madison ask

i slowly pull my hands down and see she has a blanket wrapped around her, she's sweating and out of breath

"i came to get my stuff" i tell her

"your stuff? are you..." she pauses to breathe, "staying with a friend?"

"i'm actually moving out" i say and her eyes widen

the guy tries to come up but she pushes him back down

"what?"

"i'm moving in with joey. we bought a house"

"what! your back with him already? and now moving in with him? where is the house?" she ask

joey told me to not tell anyone about where the house is, "i don't know"

"um... okay" she says

"i'll be in my room. i won't take long" i say before running up the stairs

i open the door to my room and grab my bags. i close the door shut, gosh that was so embarrassing

she could've at least texted me that she has someone over

i shake my head to get the image out of my head

i open my bags and start to shove all of my clothes inside. the faster i pack the faster i can leave so madison can finish whatever she was doing

i grab some of her old roommates clothes because i barely have anything but 3 shirts and 2 pants

i grab some of my perfume, jewelry, makeup, and other things. i hold my shoes in my hands and look around the room one more time

come on elena leave. she's waiting

i also have to pee really badly. but i have to hold it in

"i'm leaving now!" i tell her as i walk down the stairs covering my eyes

"shut up ethan" i hear

i look at her and trip on the last step making me fall to the floor. ethan is on the floor with sweatpants on

madison still has a blanket wrapped around her

"ethan?" my eyes widen

he stands from the ground and looks at me. debating if he should help me or explain what i just saw

i help myself up and grab everything that has fell from my hand

"i'm so sorry elle" mads bites her bottom lip

"it's fine- i-i don't even care. you know it's your life, i-i can't control your" i gulp, "y-your sex life"

i move my hair out of my face and look for my other pair of shoe that i lost. i keep my head on the floor ignoring there presence

gosh where is the damn shoe. the faster i leave the better. please shoe, you can't have fell that far from me, i only missed one step

"here" he stands in front of me

i look up and see him holding my second pair of shoe. i stand from the floor and take it from him

i don't know what to say. am i still in this fake relationship with him? do i get mad? walk away? cry? i'm not good at this

"elena, i'm s-"

"it's fine!" i blurt, "no need to worry you know. i-i just, didn't expect th-that it would be mads" i feel like i can't breathe now

i pick my bags from the floor and try running to the front door but ethan stops me from opening it

"i-i should go y-you know" i stutter with my words

do i tell him i'm with joey? i'm still pregnant with his baby, would he get mad if he finds out i'm living with joey?

"elle" i hear madison but i don't turn around

i slap ethans hand to let go of the door and he does. i leave the house and quickly get in joeys car

"drive off now" i tell him

he nods and presses on the pedal. fuck fuck fuck

i just want to hit something. i think i might throw up

"stop the car" i tell him and he does

i get out and fall to the floor, puking on the grass of someone's front lawn

joey runs to my side and lifts my hair, "what's wrong elena. did madison do something?"

the cramp in my stomach comes back and joey grabs a towel from his car and wipes my mouth, "breath baby"

he gives me a bottle of water as well, "rinse your mouth"

i grab the bottle from his hand. i hate rinsing my mouth after i throw up

i spit the water back out on the grass and wipe my mouth with the towel

"what happened baby?"

"i-i dont know. my stomach is killing me" i groan

"why? is it cause of the baby?"

i shake my head, "no, i don't think so. this never happened when i had sophia and jay... fuck"

"let me take you to the hospital"

"no" i blurt

he looks at me and furrows his brows, "why not?"

"no, i'm not going to the hospital. i feel better now" i take a deep breath

"let me just take you" he grabs my arm

"no joey"

he pulls me up from the floor, "okay. let's go home and get you cleaned up then"

i nod, "okay"