Desperado

part 13

"no" i try to close the door but get stopped when i feel his hand touch mine

i look up at him slowly, thoughts flooding through my head. i just wanna hug him. i want to feel his arms around me so badly but i'm not giving in

his presence is already making me feel safe here but i know what he did and i want to hate him but i cant because i still do love him

"go away joey" i step away from him

he pushes the door, "how did you pay for all this?" he eyes the place behind me

i look behind him and see lexi stepping out of the car that david was driving. i shake my head, "it doesn't matter okay just go" i push his chest lightly

"look elena we have to talk i can't keep do-"

"joey there is nothing to talk about" i scoff, "i'm just here to find the kids and leave"

"leave where?" he furrows his brows

i step out the place closing the door so madison won't hear our conversation

"where ever i can" i shrug my shoulder

"what do you mean? they are my kids too elena" he raises a brow

"not anymore. this isn't a joke to me, leave. i don't want to see you anymore, m-maybe you can find some other chic here and have her help you find the kids" i feel my breathing go uneven

"elena can you just forget about that for a second?" he shouts making my eyes widen

he bites his bottom lip when he realizes he raised his voice at me. i'm not use to joey yelling at me, he knows how much i hate it too

i feel like he's always yelling at me now. i cant even see him the same anymore

"forget what? the part where i saw you at a club with another girl? o-or the part where you called me begging for my forgiveness while you were drunk, with david in the back saying how a girl went down on you" my voice breaks making me wipe the tear that fell down my cheek

"baby don't cry" he tries to grab my face but i push his hand away

i shake my head, "don't touch me. you disgust me"

"baby no, let me explain" he frowns making my heart ache

we had everything. we had the perfect life, just us with our kids but look at us now. kids are gone, in a whole different state, and he's already been seeing other people

"explain what? how you gave yourself to someone else?" i cross my arms, he had no right to go out and be with other girls when he promised to be with me forever

"you were patient with him, you waited 8 years for him"

i look away from joey and start to think about what ethan told me before he left

except nothing comes to my mind. my heart is racing just by joey standing in front of me. i don't know what to do or what to think but i do know i want him away from me

"elena, get inside the car and we can talk about this" he holds my hands, "michael gave us a place to stay, we can stay there till we find the kids, we'll go back to california or anywhere you like"

"and ignore that you cheated on me?" i faintly say

his eyes soften when he looks deeper in my eyes driving me nuts. he's so good at making me go back but i'm not going no matter what, he hurt me